Liar liar, hanging by a telephone wire

Off day today, stayed all day at home . . .
I guess it was better off this way,
my legs needs some rest, lol.

And today, I get to see a better picture of everything . . .
I'll give all it takes to mend my mistakes, and it's time that will heal everything.
My heart and mind, they need a rest,
They really need a long break from now onwards . . .

Working day tomorrow, I'm turning in now . . .
Bye ~

Where ever you go I'm crawling, even when we're falling apart

Wow, it's the first time I touched the cash register,
and also made a strawberry smoothie and mocha float, lol . . .
It's rather interesting working at the bar, but it's shit closing it ZZZ . . .
Nevertheless, I'll have to be in the bar for a period of time someday, like Ong, haha!

It takes a whole lot of my guts to tell the truth,
at least I'm doing something I think is right to do, it'll be unfair if I don't . . .
But . . . What's next ?

Where ever you go I'm crawling, even when you're breaking me heart

If there's anyone should I hate now, it should be myself . . .
I, who can't make things better, instead made it worst.
I, who can only think about the past and not really much on what to do next.
I, who will always be on the losing end, always a loser.
I'm being pushed aside, and probably hated . . .
I want to be someone better, I would give the world,
but why am I getting all these shit right now ?
Is this all meant to be ?
This is not what I want, I mean why must it be this way ?

What can I do ?

Say it's true, I'll never ask for anyone but you

Hat-trick my foot, I scored zero, and we actually lost 3-2 . . .
Shall not talked about it anymore ZZZZZ . . . . .

There was a new full timer today who work as the runner with me today and she knows nothing, and I had to go through hell on a friday night.
Needed to teach her things, and do other things especially the food pick ups which did not stop coming, waffles, blablablabla . . .
And I was so tired after the soccer match, and I only slept for 4 hours last night :\
I went to bed at 2am but ended up sleeping around 4am, wtf kay . . . .
I'm just glad I've got through today, poof ~

CC's at my place again, lol.
Watching Arsenal v Aston Villa right now . . .
And by the way, United won Stoke 1-0 before that (:

Hmmmmm, and I met somebody whom I've haven't met for a very long time today, kinda sudden decision though, lol.
I guess we've left the past behind already,
and I'm glad that everything's okay now (:

But in anyway, life is still as black as the gutter . . . . . . .

Say it's true, or everything that matters breaks in two

I just got back from work, and having a hang over during work sucks to the core !
I felt nauseous, lethargic, and it's like I may puke anytime . . .
I was fucking hungry but I threw away the food after a few mouth of it, lol. . .
Luckily it lasted for around 2 hours only, felt better after that,
but I still couldn't stand the smell of the disinfective liquid we used to clean the tables, the smell of the alcohol , UUUHHHH . . . . Ahahaha !

I guess work tomorrow would be very tiring, cause I have to wake up so damn early tomorrow,
to play a match with the B Boys 2009 (:
It's been more than a month since I've played soccer, can't wait to score goals, hat-trick, maybe double hat-tricks, lol.
Good luck ~

Gonna bathe now, me feet stinks like garbage . . .
ps: 4 months knowing you, it's getting unknowing . . . ):

Merry Christmas, here's to many more

When the clock struck 12, people were celebrating the festive season,
while I was topping up the condiments at Shokudo, LOL. . .
Whatever . . .

I met CC and Gary after work, like around 1.30am, and thank goodness we were there.
We actually kinda saved a life on Christmas day, ahahaha!
Cause this girl/woman collapse while we were walking pass her, so we called for an ambulance, I tell you the scene was epic, to me =X . . . Felt kinda proud, lol !



And then we had a little Christmas "party" . . .
Got drunk after a bottle of Black Label, haha!
I think I'm having a hang over right now,
and I still have work later :\ . . .

Anyway, I would like to wish all of you a
MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D
May this season bring you joy, peace and love,
May all your wishes come true,
Celebrate the day (:
I won't be doing or getting any of the above though . . . . . . .
ps: Merry christmas to you . . . . . . . . . . . Sighs . . . . .

I'll give up all I have just to breathe the same air as you

Headed to Queensway to get my contacts,
then to GWC just to follow CC look for some monkey present, lol.
And then, over to my place to bore ourselves out ZZZZZ . . .

The atmosphere was even more mundane the moment they left . . .
Like . . . So cold . . . filled with all my miseries . . .
It's not like I have not even tried pulling myself up before, I've tried many times already but sometimes I'll just breakdown and collapse, tormented by the thoughts that tears me apart and toss me into a world overwhelmed with remorse . . .
You people may think I'm weak, emo piece of crap.
Seriously, I can't help it, when your broken heart breaks your mind and breaks you down, it's really uncontrollable . . .
Everyday, I'll yearn for a better tomorrow, but will that better day ever come?
I live the tomorrows that that didn't get any better, and it really worns me out, sometimes I just get so sick and tired. . . .
Letting go will be the last thing that I will ever do, and solemnly other that what the fuck am I suppose to do ?

I can act all strong as much as I want here,
but what's the point ?
ps: It's not that we're can't be just friends, I'm okay with that, but you seem to be drifting so far and treating me almost like a stranger. Remember you once asked me, "Eh meh meh, if one day we don't contact anymore will ___ ____ __? :D". Does that even concern you now ?

With every appearance of you, blinding my eyes

It's 6.25 in the morning right now and CC just left my house . . .
He's been such a nice guy accompanying throughout the many nights, hahaha . . .

It's my off day today (:
But I'm working tomorrow and christmas day itself :\
Probably there'll be no meaning to it anyway,
Christmas should be a season of love, joy and care . . .
I'll be spending christmas day in misery anyway, uh whatever.

Maybe the managers have already planned a surprise ?
Just a wishful thinking anyway, gah . . . But still I got a feeling something like that is gonna happen =X

Heading for the bed already . . .
I'm meeting CC later, again, lol.
ps: Even if we can or can't be friends, I'll be with you until the very end.

A black wind took you away from sight, and held the darkness over day that night

I was the last person to reach home yesterday, around 2.30am.
And I was one hour late for work today ZZZ . . .
It's okay anyway, I worked till 9pm, cause CC was called over last minute as we're short-handed, hahahah.
And I hit the target of promoting 15 bowls of Vongole (Clam) soup udon and I got my reward, spaghetti for dinner (:
They really have a good way of motivating the staffs huh . . . Lol.

Hmmm,
CC, Gary and Ong's at my house right now. . .
Watching Arsenal currently leading Liverpool 1-0, hopefully it stays that way, lol.

Thank goodness I'm working at 5pm tomorrow (:
ps: Even when pointless conversations arouse, I'm still not running out of patience.

Unconditionally and irrevocably

So we watched Twilight yesterday,
and I had a great impression of the storyline and I might just be reading it one day, lol.
MIGHT . . . . . . . .

Dined at Shokudo once again, Citylink's one . . .
Then CC stayed over at my place after work (:

Todayyyy . . .
Wasted 3 bucks on a ear ring,
cause after buying it, I realized it looks like crap after putting it on . . .
ZZZZZZ . . . .
And, oh yeah,
the pay cut's day is this Sunday,
I'll be getting money money soon :D

And CC's at my place again, and staying over again.
Lol . . . .
ps: I will hang on.

Why do you take it all, why do I beg for more? I never thought that this is how I hit the floor.

Thank my aunt hell loads for treating me lunch at V8 Cafe during my break today,
then bought me a naissss pair of jeans (:

Oh yeah, today a customer complimented on me.
About the waffle I guess, when I added more chocolate sauce for them and told them I made it,
HAHAHA! I really did made it . . .
Hopefully he'll send an email of compliment and I'll get 30 bucks woah !

And tomorrow is my off day :D
I'm gonna watch Twilight, and find out what's so special about it, lol.

Off to bed,
Nights ~
ps: I'll give you the best of me.

I guess it's too bad that everything we had is taken away

Yadayadayada . . .
I'm gonna boringly blog about work again, heh . . . . .
It's only my 3rd week working, and I feel like I've been here for a long time already, lol.
I'm not gonna drag on, it was rather boring today ZZZ . . .

Sighs, if you ever ask me how's life.
It's difficult and it isn't getting any better.
I want to go back in time, and replay those times when my smile was not broken yet . . .
ps: Just tell me what is going on . . .

There's always someone fucking hanging on, can anybody make things better ?

There was a new colleague today, and she's the only female part timer, LOL !
Like what Andi said: "She'll be the root to grow more girls . . ."
HAHAHAHA!
Hopefully, she won't get chased away by all the crazy staff, hahaha!

CC and Gary dined at my outlet today, we haven't even got our pay and we're eating such expensive food like quite oftenly, lol . . .

Gahhhh,
It's gonna be another long day tomorrow. . .
Byeeeeee ~
ps: It seems like it's destined to fail, but . . . .

There's always something different going wrong, the path I'm walking's in the wrong direction

I'm so exhausted, I haven't been getting enough sleep ZZZ . . .
Slept at 5am in the morning and worked at 12pm today.

And my parents and sister came today, HAHA!
Got the pizza and drinks for free (:

A few stuffs happened yesterday . . .
- Dined at Citylink's Shokudo with Gary and Charles, got our desserts for free, lol.
- CC and one of his female colleague suddenly went over to Bugis's outlet to work.
- Had free drinks at my own outlet with Gary.
- The hilarious taxi driver talked about whores and licking ice cream with cream/honey, HAHA!
- Gary and CC stayed over at my place.

Some bone on my right leg hurts like fuck the whole day, and the painful tear on my lower lip doesn't seem to be getting any better . . .
Maybe I'll die the next day, lol --"
I'm fucking sleepy and I'm turning in soon !
GOODNIGHT . . . .
ps: Why did you do this to me? How did you do it so easily?

I still . . .

I feel so sluggish . . . . . . . . . .. . .. . . .
I barely had 5 hours of sleep and I need to go to work already, wtf . . . ... . ...
At least, I'm going off at 6pm today, ehhhehehehehhh ~

There was a 3 hours straight of fullhouse-ness yesterday,
just imagine the stress . . .
Customers calling from all directions and you don't know where to start,
and then the more you hesitate, the more time you waste, lol. . .

I'm definitely going to switch to part-time after my first month,
6 days a week, 8 hours at least a day is really for someone with no life . . .
You won't even have the time to spend the money, haha!

I'm going off already, hopefully I'l survive, lol.
BYE !

What about me,
was I missed ?
ps: Glad you're back . . . . (:

Spending all my time stuck in yesterday

Seems like Wei Yuan is gonna be the Bar King soon, hahaha!
Improving tremendously sehhhh, lololol !
He even made me a Macha (Green tea) smoothie, woahhhh ~

I'm working till 1am tomorrow and starting at 10am the following day !!!
ZZZZZ . . . .

All hail Manchester United!
First in the group stage (:
ps: I'll be entirely embracing you that I've found to be sincere . . .

Hold back the tears, endure, stay strong

CC and I spent a rather boring day, at Bugis . . .
Like I've been there for more than a week, every single day,
and I'm there even on my off day, lol.

Anyway, we watched Four Christmases.
It's a rather humorous, movie, haha!
"Wanna have a click ? (On the tits)", LOLOLOL !

After that, we had dinner at Shokudo!
It cost us a bomb, around $40 . . . After deducting the cost of the drinks which are made free by one of my managers (:

Then we roam around the place . . . and then lifelessly waited for WY and QZ to knock off from work which dragged till around 11.30pm, lol.

I feel like I've wasted my off day, plus it's expensive ! ZZZ . . .
Whatever, it's a working day again tomorrowwwww. . . . . . . --"|

Oh yeah,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY,
CHARLENE :D
THAM THAM THAM THAM . . . .
BEST WISHES !
ps: Hopefully, you'll come back smiling at me . . . Sighs . . . (:

Stop pretending

I have to admit, sometimes I feel I'm hiding behind a smile filled with miseries.
I've tried my very best to stay strong, and I know I will,
I just need more time to alter the state of my mind . . .

At least for now work is keeping me busy and cheerful.
It's like the happiest time in the day, but when I'm home, I'll be too tired to think of anything but sleep, lol.

Today's an exception, it's just so sudden . . .
I don't want to feel like this, I really hate it, but I can't help it.
Feeling desperate, heart aching, depressed and desolate of the soul. I feel like I'm being stabbed and trying to smile and stay happy at the same time, I really don't know . . .
I really do not want to ever let go

Hopefully,
all the hopes will turn to reality and the tragedies to forgotten memories . . .

Dreams turns to dust, dust turns back to hope

My name was actually at Station 1 and F/Runner, lol.
Two positions! Woaaahhhh . . . . . . --"|

I have a colleague, his name is Jeffrey and he is one joke/prank fuck! HAHA!
Really can't stand him, he can be utterly irritating yet fucking hilarious at the same time, lol!
I regretted replying him "Yes", when he asked if I could take jokes =X
Anyway, it was another great day at work (:

Tomorrow's my off day ! :D
Maybe I'll dine at Shokudo for dinner, LOL !
ps: I hope you're having fun, I hope you're safe (:

You're the unaccented beat in my heart

I guess Ong had a fine first day ? HAHA!
The worst had yet to come, LOL !
I had a rather unfortunate day . . .
The worst mistake I made today was to topple a huge bowl of flour and I had to clean it like some mad dog ZZZ. . . Luckily it was in the kitchen though, heh . . .
And it was really hectic today . . .
I had to make a few waffles at a time, and there's only one waffle making machine or whatever you call it, at the same time, I had to do the food pick ups, cleaning of cutlery, refilling, etc etc etc . . .

Gah, it's certainly challenging,
but some of the staff and managers can make it, so why can't I ? lol.
I believe I can handle the stress when I fully master this position, hahaha!

Hmmm,
QZ and I had the same split shift schedule today,
so we went to watch The City Of Ember, lol.
It was fantastic for sure, you guys should catch it someday (:

I'mma have supper now, haha.
Byeee . . . . . .
ps: Wondering how you're doing . . . (:

River flows in you

I worked at a boring position just now, being the runner kinda sucks, I spent most of the time standing in between the kitchen, the bar, and the floor itself, always blocking the fast flowing staff while I clean the cutlery, bowls and or whatever. And the worst thing is that there's a clock right in front of me showing me how slow time is passing ZZZZZ !
On the other hand, making waffles and toasts was fun, lol !

Wrong orders make the managers angry but it makes me happy, haha!
I get to eat those food that cost a bomb for free (:

And. . . We finished cleaning up early today, and waited for the fucking shuttle bus for around an hour.
Nevertheless, crazy jokes cracked us up, especially when one of the staff made fun of the security guard which was super LOL !

I must admit I'm very satisfied this job, it's fatiguing though . . .
At least we can mingle around well, like most of the staffs are around our age and it's like all of them are in the normal stream, if not school leavers =X
Even the managers and kitchen staff, they're all full of crap, hahaha!

Oh yeah, welcome to our team,
ONG WEI YUAN !
LOL ! :D
ps: From the bottom of my heart, I'll miss you, really . . . lol, I'm making it so exaggerating as if you're not coming back forever . . . But still, 5 days will seem like forever =XX

I'm standing before you, this label on my head

Manchester United 1
Vidic 90(+1)
Sunderland 0

Not Rooney, not Tevez, not Berbatov, certainly not Ronaldo. . . .
It's United's center back, Nemaja Vidic who scored the late winner and win all 3 points for the Red Devils (:

Three of us only drank 2/3 bottle of wine altogether last night, wth . . .
And after eating our late supper we don't even feel like drinking anymore, lol.
Uh . . . Whatever . . . Aahahahahahah . . .. . . . --"

I'm working till 1am again today starting from 5pm ZZZ . . . .
I was kinda surprised yesterday, cause Friday night was 10 times busier than yesterday's, which is a Saturday. Hope it stays the same for today, lol !
Gah, I guess it should be okay (:

When I look up at the skies, I see you.
When I turn and close my eyes, it's you.
And when I'm sitting all alone in my room, everything reminds me of you.

I'm pleading before you, for you to understand,
how much I adore you.
I'll be there until the end,
when everything falls down,
will you hold my hand ?
ps: I guess you'll be asleep already by the time I come home and blog later ... Just wanna tell you, to takecare extra loads for the next 5 days, we won't even be making the slightest contact, I'll ____ ___, lol ... See you around then ... And don't stop smiling okay ? :D

All I need in this life is one thing to believe in

Having my 3 hours break again, split shift again . . .
At least, I'm working only till 10am today, and it's gonna be a very very busy night later on because it's a Saturday! ZZZZ !

I'mma relaxxxxx after that with CC and Gary, lol.
And Ong Wei Yuan is a pang seh kao . . .
Because of piercing his ear he doesn't want to join us, ahaha!


Manchester United's gonna kill off Sunderland tonight!
Hopefully Carlos Tevez will play (As Gary hoped for, ahaha!), as he scored 4 goals against Blackburn 2 days ago to send United in to the Carling Cup semi-finals (:
Too bad the Black Cats are without Roy Keane right now, lol.
Man United 5 - 3 Blackburn - Carling Cup Quarter Finals

ps: Good to hear from you! :D

Delusions of grandeur

Oh gawwwddd, so fucking tired, LOL.
I just finished work at 1am, and look at the time now !
1.51 am! and I have work at 11 in the morning ZZZZ . . .

Thank goodness, there's a free bus shuttle ride by my restaurant to send everyone home, the last one would be extremely unlucky, especially if you're living in the north area, which a few of my colleagues and managers are, hahaha!

Gah, anyway, it feels rather good, I've made great acquaintances for the past few days.
My work mates and managers are just entertaining, even at the busiest times, lol.
My outlet manager who is a lady said "Eh, very hot leh!"
Then my service manager who is a man replied "Strip luh, also nobody want to see. . . "
Hahaha! Cause she is rather overweight you see . . . lol ! =X
WHATEVER . . .
There's even free alcohol at the end of the day (:

I gotta go get some rest now,
Time check, now, 2.05am, boooo . . . .
Goodnight peepos! :D
ps: This time I'm really okay, hope you'll be too, soon. Okay? SMILE ! (:

I gave my all for you, now my heart's in two

Have you guys ever wondered why am I making such a rather drastic change?
LOL if you think it's for myself, heh. Nevertheless, partly, yes, just a lil' part, haha.
I guess most of you people who're close to me knows why . . .
You all may say it's the power of love, well perhaps ?

I'm a person who strongly believe that one should be him/her own true self, like how I used to . . . Maybe I was behaving rather notoriously, maybe extremely, lol.
But after certain circumstances, sometimes you'll just get desperate, and would do anything to pursue your hopes, dreams, ambitions, something you want really badly. . .
Some may cost the money, but some are just priceless, it's a matter of the heart . . .
I comes with sheer determination, perseverance, it's not just about the hard work, but also the heart work.

You may love others for who they are, but they might not treat you the same way . . .
And that is one of the reasons why people are changing, the world is changing, this asshole blogging in the middle of the night here is changing too.
Yes, I'll have positive effects on my myself, people start to praise me, I have a easier cash flow without spending on cigarettes, but all these do not even really matter . . .
I can behave like how I used to, people can hate me, lie to my parents for cash to buy cigarettes and then get broke very often, I don't care, I can take life very easy, the play before you think kinda attitude, 100% carefree . . .

But, It just take a single person to make you want to mend your ways, you want to leave yourself a good impression on the person, always. Some maybe be faking it which are most probably the majority, but the serious ones would willingly change for the ones they truly love . . .
If you think I'm one of the fakers, I can't comment on that, everyone has their own perception and I can't change that . . .
All I can say is, believe it or not, just wait and see, heh.

I used to think that I will never kick out smoking, but it's been 10 days since I've smoked, impressive, lol . . .
A friend told me " The world does not stop spinning because of a girl."
Well, the world does not stop spinning but my heart has stopped beating, haha! Just kidding, I'll be dead already --"
I'm not emo already anyway, I'm just not thinking so much right now . . .
As long as the other party is happy, and okay, I'm satisfied.
I'll do my best, give my best shot, and remember,
Hard Work + Heart Work = The Key To Success
LOL !

Perhaps, it's really the power of love, heh.

It's uncontrollable to think of you everyday

I'm having my split shift 3 hour break now, lol.
Gonna go back soon already, all the way till 11 . . .
Tomorrow's even more worst, until 1am ZZZZZ . . . .
Actually, it's okay, I don't mind anyway, hahaha!

Off I now . . .
Goodbye (:
ps: There will be sunshine and rainbow after the storm . . . Cheer up, smile alright ? :D

Until the day I die, I'll spill my heart for you

It's been a long time since I've felt like this,
Especially during dinner time, people are enjoying the food while I can only stare at the those tempting food like a fucking moron and work my fucking ass off, haha!
Anyway, one of my managers bought Mac for us at the end of the day :D
CC and Gary, be so jealous, I got a double cheese burger and you guys don't! LOL!
And my dad is too kind to fetch me home after work,
my lovely mom and sister tagged along too, heh . . .

I have split shift tomorrow and I hate it.
Like what am I gonna do for 3 hours ZZZ . . .
Most likely I'll go home, which is kinda stupid but I have no choice, lol . . .

I'm dead beat, diving into bed now, hahah . . .
Goodnight ! (:
ps:I just want you to know, with everything I won't let this go. These words are my heart and soul ...

Why did you do this to me? Why did you do this so easily?

First day of work
This job is way better than Seoul Garden and Toys 'R' Us, ahaha!
The managers are the by far the best ones compared to my previous employers and my colleagues are rather friendly.
Ong will be joining us (QZ and I) next week !
And. . . . The food looks very appealing, so do visit us at Shokudo, Bugis, LOL !
Anyway, I've switched to full-time which will fetch me $1.2k a month (:

I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence,
so please just break the silence . . .

I'll give you my heart on a string

Manchester City 0
Manchester United 1
Rooney 42
Manchester City V Manchester United

Cristiano Ronaldo seems to be in a bad mood recently, always playing with that irritated expression, haha . . . Eventually, he got sent off --"
Whatever it is, Wayne Rooney scored the winner, United won the Manchester derby and bagged all 3 points (:


Chelsea 1
Djourou 31(o.g.)
Arsenal 2
van Persie 59, 62
Chelsea V Arsenal

Robin van Persie, scored two goals to equalize and win the game for the Gunners.
Who cares if the equalizer's supposed to be ruled out for offside ?
All I care is that Chelsea are gonna slip up that's all =p


Gary and WY came over to my place last night to watch the matches . . .
Drank wine and then liquor, haha!
I'm not gonna elaborate about their drunken state,
I'll be an asshole if I do so, LOL.

Went to Bugis with QZ just now to get our shirts and apron for work.
Gonna start working tomorrow already (:
I want a laptop.
I want a desktop now, heh.

Tell me all of your hopes, all of your dreams
I want you to take me there
Tell me all of your hopes, all of your dreams
I want to take you there
And tell me everything, every breath
I want you to know I’ll be there
There’s just one more thing, one request
I want you to take me with you

Take me with you,
I will never let you down, and I will love you now and forever

ps: For the last time, just for lunch, okay? Just take it as I'm asking you out ask as a friend. I won't prompt you anymore, just tell me when you see this or whenever you feel like answering me. I'll be waiting . . . . You're the reason why I'm changing.

Scream your heart out

Sorry for not updating, I'm just sick of emphasizing how sad I am --"
And maybe, all these emo shit is making me look weak, heh . . .

Anyway, about the post sometime ago about me changing into a better person . . .
I guess I've made quite a big progress, should be happy bout it (:
No more antichrist crap, I don't find it fun or cool anymore, lol . . .
And . . . I did not touch cigarettes for the past 6 days,
and of course the days are still counting.
Most importantly, I've started to think and consider before I shoot my words, heh.
Hopefully, I can maintain it and get used to it (:

And for some reason, I decided not to wear skinnies anymore.
I prefer straight cut jeans now, esp grey ones @_@
Lol, and for whatever reason I've started using LOL, LOL! XD

Last but not least . . .
I would like to thank each and everyone of you for cheering me up.
It helped, really :D

Empty spaces, fill me up with holes. Distant faces, with no place left to go . . .

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over


I will be dead for the moment . . .
Anyway, happy 1 year to butterfliesatthemailbox@blogspot, heh . . .

Without you, within me, I can't find no rest

KBOX-ed just now.
It's been extremely long since the 4 of us went out together, heh.
Felt kinda awkward at first, but it was rather fun shortly after that (:

Then . . .
I reached home with that crashing feeling of loneliness, as usual.
Sighs . . .

I'm awake, but my world is half asleep,
I'd pray for this heart to be unbroken,
but without you all I'm going to be is incomplete . . .

ps: No, I can't fake it, there's really no one else in my mind except for you.

Pushing me away, if you really don't care then say it to my face

It's a matter of time.
It's a matter of the determination.
It's a matter of the constancy.
It's a matter of the confidence.
It's a matter of the willpower.
It's a matter of the heart.
I will never give up . . . .

ps: I really won't . . .

Pushing me away, try to stop me now but it's already to late

Go ahead and laugh ~


I've got a job at Shoduko, some Japanese restaurant,
one of our last resorts to work under F&B . . .
It's so hard to find a good job at this period of time ZZZ . . .
Whatever, at least QZ's with me at Bugis's outlet, while CC and Gary's at City Link's and Ben's alone at Cineleisure's, haha!

Anyway, work start's next Tuesday . . .
And hopefully, I can keep my mind busy by then.

While I'm trying hard to stay mentally and emotionally strong,
each blow from the adversities gets heavier,
causing greater sorrows and pain . . .

ps: What you used to be, what we used to be . . . Is it ever coming back ?

Pushing me away, every last word, every single thing you say

I don't know how long can I hang on to these despairing days . . .
I lack the appetite, I do not have the mood for practically anything, I can't fall asleep for long.
Sometimes, I just feel like screaming my fucking lungs out.
It feels so stressful, I just feel like pulling my hair off my head then bang my head on the fucking wall and then cry like a fucking emo shit . . .
It's really painful and agonizing.

Why can't I ever get something that I genuinely want ?

ps: You don't even know, how it feels to be so low, everytime you smile, you laugh, you glow . . .

Drinks for free when you're with me, if you're down with me then you must believe, that's you're always on my mind

Boredom is killing me . . . .
I've been sitting here, staring at this for hours and hours ZZZ . . .
Not a single phone call today ZZZ . . .

I should just return to days, where it all just started.
For the very first time, when the expectations wasn't immense,
when I was satisfied with everything.
Then I wouldn't be so discontented.
But,
I am not the only one changing . . . .
ps: Strong willed, determined, persevering, unfaltering, unwavering, and tenacious.

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless

Went to Marina, Suntec and . . . Ikea. . .
Hopefully, I'll get a phone call by this week,
and hopefully we'll all be working together, haha!

Gonna play soccer later (:
Bye!


Edited: More Grad night photos, haha !

So honoured, the prom queen ! =x

That's Ben and I starting our "performance" --"

EPIC .

ps: I caught a glimpse of heaven today (:

I'll force a laugh to break the silence

Hmmm, post Grad night. . . .
JOB HUNT !
Hopefully, high paying and relaxing, like who doesn't want that --"
CC and Ben came over to my place, flipped through newspapers, search the internet, kinda uninteresting . . .
So Ben and I headed to Vivo.
Filled in a few application forms, which would be most probably for nothing, hahaha!
So . . . . I'm going out again tomorrow, around Marina and Suntec.
Hopefully, I'll find an ideal job, heh . . .


Here's a few photos of Grad Night ! (:

Too bad, I'm not in this one, instead I was doing a lil' planning with CC's birthday surprise :\

Prom King & Queen !

ps: Is it going to get harder before it gets easy ? You're like you'll always be a little far for me to reach . . .

I wish I could take you all to where I must go

GRAD NIGHT 2008
It was insane, fun, although the food was like bloody hell crap but it was the convivial atmosphere mattered the most.
I've won a $10 Ben & Jerry's voucher, while QZ won an 8GB Ipod Nano!
HAHA! Lucky shit @_@ . . .
Ben and I also got into embarrassment, acting like some gay boy band assholes, walking around and lip syncing in people's faces, and those gay actions, hahahaha!
Whatever, its not our first time embarrassing ourselves anyway XD
And then . . . I took our lungs, and breaking a few items on our table before Yi Chun and Carmel were crowned Prom King and Queen ! (:
After that, was just dance, and photo taking sessions, haha!

And then when the clocked strucked 12, it was a very . . .
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY to
CHEE CHOONG ! :D
It was a lousy surprise anyway, he already knew it thanks to some lousy acting =X
Anyway, we played LAN till 6am! HAHA! XD
I can be fun . . . and fucking boring at times ZZZ . . .
Then we had breakfast at Funan's mac after that, and then headed home!

Hmmm, Grad night may be the last time for me seeing some people, I don't know . . . Organised more outings ? Hahaha!
Nevertheless, it was a memorable day, one I'll never forget . . . The place was just flooded with smiles and laughter, everyone was at their best outfit . . . (:
Everything just ended too fast :\ . . .
All I could do now is . . . Sigh . . .
Someday, maybe . . . Heh . . .
Anyway, I'll post the photos up once I get them ! :D

ps: Still not ____ng __ . . . Never will . . .

I just wanna play my music all night long

Manchester United 5
Ronaldo 4, 89
Carrick 45
Berbatov 49
Welback 84
Stoke City 0

Manchester United trashed Stoke City and go all the way up to 3rd placing, 8 points behind Liverpool and Chelsea!
Cristiano Ronaldo marked his 100th goal for United with a stunning free kick ! It's been long since he scored one . . . And at the death of the game he scored number 101, with yet another freekick, fantastic ~
Berbatov scored, Carrick scored, and the 17 year old substitude Danny Welback scored an an absolute screamer !
Stoke City were bloody violent, but at the end of the day it was the Red Devils that had the last laugh :D


Anyway, I went to play soccer at Telok Blangah yesterday with CC and a few of his friends,
I don't know why I got so tired so easily, but nevertheless I had fun, no peer pressure . . . HAHAHA! XD
For the 4th time in a row, CC stayed over at my place on the weekends, hahaha!
Watched his Arsenal got beaten into a pulp by Aston Villa, hahaha! =X
Then we played WE 11, all night ~
Oh yeah, I went to his house before that, for the first time, haha!
And there are not only cats there, there are lotsa cat structures all around, hahahaha! XD

GRAD DAY -> TOMORROW ! :D

ps: I hope things aren't so bad right now . . .

Down where the city meets the sea

Ruud van Nistelrooy vows to fight back
The Dutchman will miss the rest of the Spanish season after surgery on a partially torn cartilage, which could sideline him for at least nine months.

"This is one of the most difficult moments in my career," he said.

"It's pretty tough to be told that I will not return to play until the start of next season, that I will be sidelined for eight or nine months.

"But I have two options, give up or fight. I know I need to fight and my battle has just begun."

Van Nistelrooy continued: "I had no other option but to undergo surgery. The injury was a serious one. I've gone to the best knee surgeon.

"He told me that I will return to play and I will return to play.

"It's true that I’m 32. But eight years ago I went through a similar situation as this one and I know what I have to do.

"I want to return to top form and be the player I was before.

"I have lots of goals left to score for Madrid and many aims yet to achieve.

"I still have a Champions League yet to win and I will give everything to win it.

"The recovery will be very hard but no-one should doubt that I will overcome this."


Simply inspiring, for a player at this age, who doesn't give up.
You'll always have my everlasting support . . .
Trust me, van Nistelrooy will be my favourite player, my idol, my inspiration until the day I die (:

ps: Have you ever thought of what I told you? Don't you have anything to tell me ?

Beat but I'm not broken, guide me through with your hands

I've got all my stuffs for Grad night already, hahahaha!
Hope I don't look wierd, cause I don't think I look wierd . . . @_@

Anyway, Ruud van Nistelrooy is down and out for the rest of the season . . .
I got a feeling his time for hanging up his boots is near ):
I hope he'll be back soon , I know he will . . . .
In Ruud I'll always trust (:


Hmmmm,
almost everyone, has brought the blogs back from the dead.
All those happy exclamations . . . "Os are over !!"
I don't know, it just makes me smile reading em' , heh . . .
I just glad Os are finally over, I know I've said it before, but I don't care (:

I always thought that Os was something easy come, easy go . . .
But when it really arrives, I did things I never expected that I would do.
Burning the midnight oil, trying my very best to do the best . . .
I guess I've drank approximately 50 cups/cans of coffee altogether for the one month of hell =X
Just to stay awake, stay focus, it's unhealthy I know, but it's the only way.
I shouldn't be saying all these right now anyway, it's all over already. . .
I've cleared the mess on my desk, cleaned the coffee stains on it too, haha!
Anway . . .
3 more days to GRAD NIGHT !
Let's have the time of our lives my friends . . . :D
It may be our last chance . . . Sighs ~

Promise me you will be there,
until the red light will change,
I would wait forever.
Promise me you will stay here,
until the darkness will fade,
I'd wait for you . . .

And those who resisted were dragged out from their homes

Yet another string of captivating videos, ahahah (:
Awesome football compilations !


Euro 2008 - Skills and more skills


The Premier League - The Heart Of Football


Steven Gerrard


Fernando Torres


Ronaldinho with Barcelona


Cristiano Ronaldo - The Proof, Part I

Part II

Part III


I cannot wait for the arrival of Grad Night, hahaha!
I'm gonna get my mask tomorrow, hopefully (:
ps: I think I'm losing my____ ___r ___ . . .

Woah ohh ohh, never giving in, I just wanna be, wanna be loved ~

O LEVELS ARE OVER ! :D
Heh, I'm not going worry about my results, no point doing so . . .
I just wanna enjoy the hell out of myself (:
JUMP FOR JOY ! AHAHA!

Played soccer at Purmei just now,
It was rather enjoyable, especially the 11-10 win . . . Heh.
And. . . . I'm going off, to Queensway, soon . . .
To shop for my shoes for Grad night (:

Hmmm . . . .
It's a good thing to be yourself, but, if you've gone way overboard, it's no good . . .
Went you get to a point, when you don't give a damn about the feelings about others, it's just very . . . Atrocious? Detestable? Awful? Beastly? Inferior? Stinking? Crappy?
Haha . . .Change for the better? Change for others? Change for myself?
Be someone more . . . Admirable, acceptable, favourable, commendable, satisfying, gratifying?
I'll try . . . . . . .

Hardship times are so over baby ~
ps: I want ___ __ be pleased with __ . . .

Recounts and recollections

POA MCQ paper went rather well, hopefully I'll do well for my POA, overall. Hahaha . . .

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY
TAN YONG YANG :D
BOMB BOMB BOMB !
WUHAHAHA! XD


My, our plan went rather smooth (:
CC's the only one left, he's still 16, hahahahaha! Suckerrrr. . . . =X

LAST FUCKING PAPER TOMORROW !
:D :D :D :D :D :D
I'm going to screw the fucking school baby ~
Just kidding. . . Maybe a lil' bit ? HAHA!
ps: Hoping that you'll feel like getting out of the house XD

There're a thousand of you like me, and you'll be so so sorry

Arsenal defeated United at the Emirates Stadium ):

Real Madrid 4
Higuian 8, 37(pen.), 71, 78
Malaga 3
Eliseu 5
Baha 18
Apono 70
SENSATIONAL !


POA MCQ paper tomorrow, good luck ! (:
ps: I seriously ____ ___ . . . . :\

Sending an open invitation to all the pioneers driven by suspicion

Boooooo, stayed home yesterday, and today :\
Gonna stay home all day at home again tomorrow,
but CC's gonna come over to witness the showdown between our favourite teams ! (:

Adios!
Off to bed now . . . . ZZZ

ps: Inhale, addiction, y o u .

This is what I need, please

All I'm with left is MCQs papers (:
Hopefully I'll pass my chinese this time round . . . Heh.

Played at Heights yesterday, it's been long! HAHA!
Although it was raining . . . Who caressss?? XD


Anyway, not a good time for the english teams in the Champions League this week . . .
Chelsea suffered a 3-1 lost to Roma,
Liverpool drew 1-1 against Atletico Madrid,
Arsenal drew 0-0 against Fenerbahce,
and Man United drew 1-1 against Celtic . . . :\
And . . . . . Real Madrid lost 2-0 against Juventus! ):
Boooo! Felt so annoyed and irritated and depressed watching them play . . . . ZZZZZZZ . . .
Nevertheless, both Real and United will be able to qualify to the next round, haha.

Please sing me a song,
and I'll sing it back to you.
I could sing my own,
but what will it be without you . . .

ps: Am I ever _________ to you? :(

I'll hold you down, fold you in, deep in the fiction we live

Went for Mdm You's last minute chinese thingy,
it wasn't really effective though . . . zzz

Anyway, WY and CC came over to my place after that and played WE 11, haha!
Played like a bunch of crazy gays screaming . . . @_@

It's chinese tomorrow, and. . .
we're gonna kick some balls after that (:


JAW DROPPING, EYE GLIMMERING !
Superb goals 2008/2009
Part I (August)

Part II (September)

Part III (October)


The Premier League Goals of the month (October)



EPL October 2008/2009 MotD Goals Of The Month BBC - video powered by Metacafe

ps: The letter was 100% straight ____ _h_ _____ . . .