Shape the days ahead of you to perfection

I shall walk through this door, full of regrets, full of miseries, once and for all, without any hesitations, without looking back.
And I will shut the door, burn the bridges, cause for all I know right now is that you're long gone.
I will open that door that's in front of me, and from then onwards it will be like you've never existed in my life as I enter this new world.
I will not be in pain anymore, I will not let the memories haunt me again,
I will be in bliss . . . I will be happy . . . I will be fine . . .
(:

Off to celebrate Weng's birthday, bye ~

There's something greater there, I will forget you

Champions League Semi Final, 1st Leg.
Manchester United 1
O'Shea 17
Arsenal 0

Highlights will be posted later or tomorrow.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY
POH YEN WENG ! :D
Finally you've reached legal liberation stage,
I'll be joining you real soon, neheheheheh ~

Going to school now, byebye ~

What is my body worth, was there a price set before ?

Dumb shit, swimming was canceled for I don't know why the fuck ? The sun was scorching hot it'll surely be nice to be in the pool, but . . . Ended up doing work outs under the merciless heat, and played soccer anyway, heh ~

Had dinner at Marina Square and hung around that area for a while, reached home around 10pm.
Tired, and yet I'm still waking up later at 3am for the Man United v Arsenal Champions League semi final match, it's a must watch if not I die ! Lol.

So I'm heading to bed right now.
Goodnight ~

I will not miss you, I will not think of you

Oh guess what, my house is exploding right now, mom is screaming, grandmother's shouting . . .
Just because of a 7 year old sister they can drag this fight all the way till like someone's gonna leave the house ? How dumber can it get ?
Still, I'll still take it as everything will be okay, everything will be fine, cause it always does eventually . . . But right now, I had to turn up the levels of my speakers to almost the max so that I won't hear a crap. Poof ~

Anyway, school has become a place, more and more anticipating. I actually played dumb games today with my classmate, especially when I got a chance to crouch and snarl like Edward Cullen, LOL!

Happy thoughts, keep having those happy thoughts, and eventually you'll drown away those memories . . . .

Some things just never stay and we all just slip away

Ha, lotsa laughter in school today, I have this classmate, Chong Wee, and he's such a joke, I don't know why either but I just kept laughing at him, especially when he starts scolding people and when he gets shoot, simply LOL !
Plus, I've been teaching Efhirdauus (By far my best mate in class) chinese and hokkien for the past few days, and today he kept like "Buay song lai, chee kua mai, knnbccb!", HAHAHA !
It doesn't sound funny here though . . . --"


Met best friend in the evening for dinner . . . Talked a little about school and stuffs ~
And the weather seriously sucks these days, fucking heat . . .
Maybe a swim on wednesday would be enjoyable, during PE, lol . . .

Real World - The All-American Rejects
I woke up on this side, I thought it was a dream
At first we learned to walk then learned to scream
You can't understand, when you're fed from a TV screen
You can't see the things that I can see

But I forget, that you thank God and pray
Some things just never stay
And we all just slip away

This can't be the real world now
I don't believe it, when I can't see the truth
Welcome to the real world now
The old are carried in only to poison youth
Am I, the only one who thinks it's tragic
'Cause I know
This can't be the real world now
Oh no oh
Oh no oh

I look for some hope in every face there's a vacant stare
The shadows come but no one seems to care
The darkness floods every light that could promise change
She passed sound asleep when the blood is stain
But blood is pain

Somewhere I know, that I'm not all alone
With this bated breath I hold
My lungs want to explode

This can't be the real world now
I don't believe it, when I can't see the truth
Welcome to the real world now
The old are carried in only to poison youth
Am I, the only one who thinks it's tragic
'Cause I know
This can't be the real world now
Oh no oh
Oh no oh
This can't be the real world now
Oh no oh
Oh no oh

Just as soon as we see
Every flaw and every need we'll understand
And for the first time
A child to a man says only pure words that he can
He's too late the man he knows it he said
With all emotions set aside in a whisper say goodbye

This can't be the real world now
I don't believe it, when I can't see the truth
Welcome to the real world now
The old are carried in now just to poison youth
Am I, the only one who thinks it's tragic
'Cause I know
This can't be the real world now
Oh no oh
Oh no oh
This can't be the real world now
Oh no oh
Oh no oh
This can't be the real world
This can't be the real world
This can't be the real world now
Oh no oh
Oh no oh

For the last time I'm saying this goodbye

Manchester United 5
Ronaldo 57(pen), 68
Rooney 67, 71
Berbatov 79
Tottenham Hotspur 2
Bent 29
Modric 32
Manchester United v Tottenham Hotspur

When United were at the seems of slipping up, when Spurs seemed poise to win and Liverpool ever ready to celebrate a United defeat . . . Things just turn around, United displayed a performance that champions should display and scored 5 goals in 22 minutes to turn the 0-2 defeat to a stunning 5-2 victory. Ronaldo surely has found his scoring form back, Rooney was also in great form and Berbatov finally rediscovered his form against his former club.
With a 3 point lead and a game in hand, with the season coming to an end by the end of next month. United are surely gonna do it again . . .

It's a boring sunday . . . . . ZZZZ . . . .

Over and over, I fall for you, again and again, but you are so determined to shove out of your life forever aren't you? Well, I'll try to get over you again. I'll try to make this the last goodbye I'll ever say to you. If silence is what you want, I'll give it to you. No matter how hard it's going to get I will always tell myself that I will be okay. No matter how your thoughts would always haunt me in the night, I'll tell myself I'll get through it and I'll be okay the next day. No matter how much the past hurts me like a bullet going through my temple, I'll tell myself that I'll be fine . . .
Just take good care of yourself . . .

The sky was so filled with clouds that I couldn't even see your silhouette

So we hung out at Kallang bridge and had frogs for supper for the 2nd time.
We didn't wait for the first bus this time, we took a cab home, as some of us were really tired including me . . . Drop dead as soon as I got home ZZZ.

Woke up in the afternoon then headed to KK Hospital.
One of my classmates is admitted in there and so I did the least to just give her a visit.

And . . . Best friend is coming here, to my place, soon, again (:

The impulse to cry emerged as you left me, and now I'm waiting for your hands to embrace my loneliness. When the truth had to be told, I should have said it out loud, the solemn silence I've maintained had only made things worse. The irrepressible urge to cry, when I've known that I've lost you. And now that the tears had all dried up, why is there still a trace of pain? In the past when I should have spoken, I should have just spoke.
This love has left a gaping hole and all that's left is miserably silence . . .

You'll never see me crashing down

There were no lessons today cause it's Telematch day, lol. The fucked up thing was that I was late and the "guards" wouldn't let me enter the dumb sports hall, so I had to trouble my class adviser to come all the way there and give me and one of my classmates the green light zzz . . .
When I got in how I wish I had not even bother coming, it was stuffy and squeezy , screams and dumb cheers here and there, nevertheless Business school won the telematch, wow proud . . . Lol.
And then I was embarrassed my classmates after that, cause it was some girl's birthday and the whole place sang the birthday song together, gawd shit.

Whatever, anyway, I played soccer with my uncle and relatives and my dad, at East Coast's costly carpet grassed futsal court. I've been wanting to play there and finally I did, and it was rather nice.
Had a few good games, scored a few, great passings, nice plays, considered good for those middle aged men, lol.

Gonna ton with the usual ones again later (:

Gah, after putting up the counter on my blog, I've realized that I have so much readers everyday, average of 70 hits per day. Yesterday was the highest as I got 114 hits, wtf ?
Nah, I'm just too popular, lol ! =X

Look at how much you tore me apart

There was this dumb spot check going on when I just got into class today. I was lucky to escape, as my hair is still coloured, lol. The spot checker must have thought that I'm a eurasian, or thought that she saw Edward, lol!
Spent an hour during AFD multi tasking, reading Breaking Dawn, and doing newbie accounting effortlessly, blah! =p. Surfed the net during BEV . . . Cause it's really boring ? But I should at listen try and absorb abit, in which I did, I guess, lol.
Hmmm, I really do need to simmer down the jokes and laughter in class, if not I'll end up like behaving like how I used to last year, crazy monkey, haha!

And I'm proud to tutor one of my classmates in accounting today (:

Some of the class outing photos, more photos here!

You don't care about anything I say don't you, you don't give a damn. I know you'll read, I know. But you just can't be bothered don't you? For everything I said is true you'll still think it's just a lie don't you? You're annoyed with what I say, giving a disgusted face to the things I say am I right? Regardless of how sincere I am right now, for the past few damn months, it meant nothing to you at all. I'm not angry at all, I'm just torn apart . . . It's always you, the thoughts of you, that'll always end up tearing me in to pieces. Except for those lies, am I not good to you at all?
Do I really deserve this much agony?

You're leaving me hanging

Ridiculous stuffs happened in school today which made me laughed my fucking ass off, lol.
Played soccer during PE today, it's the first time I used the street soccer court, fun of course, but the weather's freaking burning ZZZ . . .

Best friend's at my house now, hanging out ~


Liverpool 4 - 4 Arsenal
Liverpool v Arsenal

I don't know where your heart went, it was here just the other day.
Now it's gone, I'm gonna call the police.
Call the investigator, the heart investigator . . .

Speak to me

Firstly, my fringe and sideburns were cut short, today, one of my hopes and dreams just died out when the hair at the back was still unacceptable. How lucky of me to get caught by the DM. There's only 2 DM in the whole school with a population of 8000 plus students, just my luck, fuck!
It just makes my blood boils, seeing others with hoo-haa hair styles and they get to keep it as long as they don't get caught by the DM.
This is one of the reason why I should regret not getting into a poly, cause I look like a dumb boy now. How I miss my hair flying whenever I shake my head vigorously, how i bit my fringe, how I could tie my hair, how my hair was covering my whole ear, how I had to jerk my head to the left when it's blocking my view. I've totally lost my sense of confidence with this shit head . . .

Gah, just live and let live, I shouldn't be so negative, I have such a gifted face, lolololol ~

Sighs, I will wait, hair will never stop growing, and I will eventually have hair like Matt Tuck from Bullet For My Valentine, ha!

It's a dream to ever have long hair like that . . .

This flame I'm always ever protecting,
still seems like it's gone fade out and away any moment . . .

Are you still alive ?

Forfeit = Take photo with a stranger, lol.

Before heading off the school, late, lol.

Goodbye epic hair

Sighs . . .


I'm getting along well with the people in class (:

We can't even talk, like friends ? Yes, I admit I have intentions, I'm always asking pointless questions just to drag on the conversation, and eventually you're annoyed. I know I've made a grave mistake, but I've done alot to make up for that, my apologies were almost endless, my efforts, the waiting, more than enough. Why are you still so cold as ever? You're not the person I used to know, you weren't like that from the start, it's so different from the very first time I ever talk to you. Where did that cheerful side of you gone to? One who would ask back about my day whenever I asked first, and not just one or two words replies, I don't remember you being that cold. And all I could do is just wish and wish and wish every single day, but at the end of the day it is always always up to you. I'm just pouring my heart out. I don't really tell anyone because they are just giving me hopeless ideas, including best friend. All I could really do is just fight this feeling alone.
And continue hoping and hoping . . . Well I know you can't wait for me to get sick of it am I right ?
I am dumb posting all these because you won't even respond.

Like waiting for the sunshine in this never ending eclipse

The outing was rather fun today, had lunch at Suntec's Pizza Hut.
And everyone's in such a post-orientation mood, in which we ended up playing dumb orientation sit-in-a-circle games, lol ! Yes, it look so lame and dumb but when we started playing I don't know why I was like having so much fun, haha !
See, there's a difference playing it with friends and a bunch of strangers. There's nothing to feel embarrass about, no awkwardness, just laugh and laugh and laugh ~

Well, everyone's just talking about Poly . . . . . Ah, I will be there 2 years later, I'm working towards it no doubt. I don't want to have this dumb lagging behind perception . . .
I want to have a positive thinking, I don't want to dread going to school, I want to try blending into the school, my class, positively of course . . . No, I need to.

Watching United v Everton right now, sorry about the previous post when I said it was Spurs, I got it wrong =X.
Will update the results tomorrow, plus pictures hopefully, took quite alot, haha ~

Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight

Had work yesterday and . . . Hanged out all night with my friends, for the last time before poly starts. Watched the Arsenal v Chelsea FA Cup semi final game and drank at The Cavern bar at Boat Quay and how disappointing the game was for best friend when Chelsea came back and kicked the Gunners out of the competition, lol. United will win Spurs tonight and it would be yet another epic final, heh.
Had supper and then played Left 4 Dead all the way till sunrise, crazy, hilarious, shocking at times, absolutely fun, lol. Especially when you're already dead sleepy, and you still have to react so quickly to everything, ha.

In an hour's time, there's this class outing. Which is also the LAST outing "before school starts", hahaha ~
I'll miss all those crazy moments, crazy high pitch/low pitch laughters, scolding each others' mother, hahaha! Gahhhhhhh . . . . . . .
I don't know, I think there's still a chance even after school starts, it's not like our fridays and weekends are occupied all the time right ?
Spare the overreaction, haha!

Anyway,
Happy Birthday Penny Mom ! :D
She'll never see this, but I just wanna tell her that I miss you ~
End of the year, Melbourne (:

Like trying to force like poles together

I had 3 hours of POA today in which I spent the time finishing Eclipse, and eventually I finished it halfway through some really dumb talk in the auditorium . . . And a classmate beside me was actually watching Twilight with his PSP, lol.

Eclipse is really one fantastic, jaw dropping book. I guess it's the best. The romance between Edward, Bella and Jacob. The burning passion, they way they put it, the absolute unconditional love, when both the vampire and werewolf let the human decide as long as she's happy . . . It doesn't really sound interesting explaining it here but whatever, and the fight against the newborns and Victoria is just awesome. I took quite some time to finish this book, with all the stuffs going on, and eventually I finished it and I'm going on to Breaking Dawn ~

Anyway, I just got back from work and it has past 2am now . . . I need some sleep before I need to work again at 10.30am ZZZ . . .
Really funny crap made me laugh my ass off today, the bangala washer who is afraid to work alone, LOL ! And we were really mean to laugh right in front of him, he doesn't understand anyway =x

And it'll be the last time I'm gonna stay out all night with my close friends.
Poly is starting, everyone's on their own already . . . Sighs ~

Sincerely Yours - Hit The Lights
Wake up and let go
Of these feelings that I've had for you
It's easier said than done
So give up and let go
Of these feelings that I've had for you
Why couldn't you be the one?

'Cause it's a guilty pleasure
Deciding whether you were ever mine or not
But the truth's apparent
That you weren't ever mine to start

What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you
What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you

So don't close your eyes

Every night I kept you up
I never once heard you say stop
But right now I wish I had
I wish I had the nerve to tell you that I'm a wreck
But what really did you expect?
You never listened to what I said to you

'Cause it's a guilty pleasure
Deciding whether you were ever mine or not
But the truth's apparent
That you weren't ever mine to start

What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you
What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you

Now this broken shell of a boy
Falls to pieces with no choice
At the sound of her voice he falls apart
Now this broken shell of a boy
Falls to pieces with no choice
At the sound of her voice he falls apart,
He falls apart, he falls apart, he falls apart...

What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you
What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you

I need you

Running away

I'm thinking to myself
That I've done something wrong
That I have crossed the line
Have you found out this time
What led you to believe
It's only you and me
Do you see it in my eyes
Have you found out this time

You see right through me
Cause you're running away
You keep turning your back on me
I tried so hard
But you're running away
Please dont turn your back on me

I'm drinking by myself
And oh, I'm going down
But will you pick me up
Will you leave me on the ground
I led you to believe
It's only you and me
I can see it in your eyes
That you found out this time

You see right through me
Cause you're running away
You keep turning your back on me
I tried so hard
But you're running away
Please dont turn your back on me

Don't just turn and walk away
I can learn from my mistakes
Don't throw everything away

You see right through me
Cause you're running away
You keep turning your back on me
I tried so hard
But you're running away
But you're running away

You see right through me
Cause you're running away
You keep turning your back on me
I tried so hard
But you're running away
Please dont turn your back on me


Okay, I'm starting to laugh alot in class right now, and it's just one friend I've made right now, one I consider as a friend, haha . . . Cause we're together the whole time, joking about things here and there and just kept laughing and laughing, lololol.

Anyway, best friend came over today, and he's still here, and this poor shithole got food poisoning, hope he gets well soon, mother fucker . . . HAHA! :D


Champions League Quarter Finals, 2nd Leg Highlights
FC Porto 0 - 1 Manchester United (Agg, 2-3)
Ronaldo's 64mph, 40 yards winning screamer !!
FC Porto v Manchester United


Arsenal 3 - 0 Villareal (Agg, 4-1)
Arsenal v Villarreal


Bayern Munich 1 - 1 Barcelona (Agg, 1 - 5)
Bayern Munchen v Barcelona


Chelsea 4 - 4 Liverpool (Agg, 7 - 5)
Best game out of the 4 ~
Chelsea v Liverpool

Like turning obviously to impossibly

Not much about studying today, more of introductions blablabla. And I was already talking a fair bit today, lol. Mostly making a joke out of the wierd people in my class, ha! And I wasn't having lunch alone today, lol.

And accounting for this year is really just revision, I can even do it with one eye closed right now, it's basic of the basics. And this makes me one of the best in the accounting field right now cause some of them are doing accounting for the very first time and I know it's not nice thing to think that it's funny when they have difficulties differentiating assets, owner's equity and liabilities, debtors and creditors, etc, lol.
And I just find the homework very hilarious, pathetic, like it's insulting my intelligence. Okay, it's terrible of me to think that way, I should keep my feet on the ground. I would have been in Poly if I'm so damn clever, but I'm not and that is why I landed here . . . Haha ~
But I'm not fully into just accounting here, there's business environment, communicating for business and office application. So there's much to learn myself. I shouldn't underestimate the standards here, and work hard . . . Should keep this in mind.

And the air-conditioning seriously sucks to the core, I think it's down or something. It's like staying in an enclosed room with no open windows, no fan and the aircon not working, fucking stuffy . . . ZZZ . . .

School's suppose to start at 10 tomorrow but the schedule was brought forward to 8.30 because of some shit talk . . .
= I have to wake up at 6.30, dumb fuckkkkkkkk . . . . . . . .

Like a spider making a web from scratch

Had steamboat and table bbq last night, lotsa food and a fair bit of beer, lol.
And it's just free, and free cab home, haha (:

Orientation just sucks, for me only I guess . . . I was around 10 minutes late and they were already at the CCA fair, so I went into the indoor sports hall where they had all the CCA booths, and just signed up for A Boys Soccer, hahaha!! There will be some trial and I guess I'll be a laughing stock, lol --" . . . Maybe I'll join something related to music, there's guitaring and percussion which is kinda interesting. See how . . .
And then the team building amazing race piece of shit thing . . . I wasn't really participating, instead of being the enthusiastic one like how I used to be. I'm just being the anti-social one the whole time, standing at one side waiting for each activity to be done and got over with, always walking right at the back alone, lol, and when they cheer, I just tend to turn away in embarrassment, I'm just not up for any of that kind of fun thing at that point of time. Everyone are still strangers to me. And I'm just . . . Quiet . . . There were some people in my class who did saw me alone all the time and did try talking to me, and I was just really plain shy when I replied them.
SIGHS . . . . Time will help me bond with the class hopefully. My class doesn't really have any bad influences honestly. Some of them even look like express people with the SLOPE and nerdy behaviours, lol. Maybe it's time to make use of them for the benefit of my studies here ? Heh . . .
Things will go better and well, I know . . . It will . . . Cause I can't stand it being shy and then isolate myself. In no time, I'll be showing my true colours, muhahah ~
Plus, I might be the one helping out others in accounting, brag brag brag :p

Worked from 6 till 11 after school, dumb . . . Cause we were short handed, and only 4 staffs in total were working for dinner time and it was unexpectedly busy . . . As usual, got crazy in the bar. After being away from work for around 10 days, it's really tiring. Or maybe I just didn't get enough sleep. I need to get used to this, work and study, study and work, it'll be a good experience, maybe I'll find a more relaxing job if I really can't take the fatigue, cause it'll be more tiring than working full time, when you have to wake up early in the morning to go to school and reach home around 11plus at night ? Not everyday though, but I think I'll get sick and tired of it.
We'll see . . .

Waking up at 8 tomorrow in the morning . . .
Nights ~

I took a dive, a second try

Damn the match delay, now I couldn't see my mom off at the airport and all I could do is send my blessings through messaging :\ . . .
Ah, got over it, we can always chat online, heh ~

Anyway . . . Went for the ITE Orientation this morning and it was supposed to last till 5pm, but I left during lunch time for the match, giving an excuse that I have an important appointment, lol.
The orientation was boring and the people there are just the opposite of the rules and regulations, no long hair, but I see all sorts of crazy hair styles around. No smoking in the school premises, and the public in the ITE outfit, but people were just smoking at the bus stop right outside the school, haha! ITE will always be ITE, anyhow only ~
So I'm just glad that I don't have to do anything to my hair (:

And for the match, it was surely one tough game. We scored, they equalised, scored again, equalised again, and they scored the winner, scored one back to equalised, scored the winner, scored the killer. Full time score, 6-4. Sweet revenge, muhahaha ~
I did not score . . . I came in on the last 25 minutes, got knocked by a defender in which I could still stay on my feet, but it's my nature to just dive, and so I won my team a free kick in which the cross from it was converted into a goal by Ben, plus I assisted the last goal.
At least there's contributions.
Poor ref, got beat up after that . . . Opponent think he's being bias, losers . . . :p

Hmmm, going for the Shokudo tips supper shortly ~
Orientation day 2 tomorrow, then work, boring . . . .

92 days later, I saw . . . It's been long since the last time . . . How the few short glances set my heart racing to the fastest that it ever was,So gorgeous, yet humble, conservative, with a heart of gold in which not much have these days.The images of her just now just kept replaying in my mind, she's just perfect, just special. And then she disappeared, my eyes were wandering, still searching . . . Am I up for it once again, when the bar's raised much higher, do I even know what I should do next? Would she even care, does she even know? That she is the one person that changed me? All it was, were pointless conversations right now. Is.she.still.there.?.One.more.shot.
It's like trying to revive a dead patient, a patient that meant the most to you.

Now you see me, now you don't. Now you need me, now you don't.

Sleepily went for the turtle meat soup lunch with mom, aunt, uncle and brother, lol.
Then to the Marina Barrage . . .
Good place, should go there and stay over night at the green roof top.
Nice, windy, and the scenery's great, heh ~




More pictures at Facebook . . .
Going for dinner with my dad and biological mom now, lol !

ITE orientation tomorrow.
Not excited at all . . .
Bye ~

"I break in two over you,
I break in two and each piece of me dies.
And only you could give the breath of life,
but you don't see me, you don't . . . "

Feels like I'll never leave this place

KIKO MACHEDA SCORES THE WINNING GOAL ONCE AGAIN !
Lol, he came off the bench for the injured Berbatov and in less than a minute he scored the winner in the 76th minute. Both Sunderland and United had a hell lot of chances and the game, scary and annoying, haha! It was just full of "Oh!!! Oooo! ARGH!! POOF!!! AWWW! NOOO!", lol.
The Man United Cafebar was full today, so we (Mom and I) went to the one beside it, it's like that bar is owned by Liverpool fans . . . ZZZ. And after they trashed Blackburn 4-0, the Liverpool fans were taunting the people at the United Cafebar, lol. Yeah, at the and United were victorious and climbed back to the top of the table after 90mins of hardwork, really. We had the last laugh :D
Highlights will be uploaded ~

Anyway, before that I went over my mom's place for dinner, she made steak this this, with mash potato, simply fantastic, haha. After which, we headed for the game and drinks (:
Time flies, and she's leaving tomorrow night :\ . . .

My schedule tomorrow is so packed . . .
9.30am - ITE Orientation
2.15pm - Match against the current sec 4s (Be there to watch us destroy them, lol)
7pm - Dinner with my mom and then send her off at the airport
11pm - Supper with Shokudo's staff using the collected tips, haha.

It's going to be 5 in the morning, I'd better get some sleep, there's lunch with my mom at 12, haha!
MorningNightsBye ~

"Tell me where you are, and I'll find you.
Tell me what it takes to see this through,
tell me what it takes to get to you.
And I'll be there waiting . . ."

The death of Jesus day

Happy Good Friday ~
Everyday's a holiday for me right now, since last November, lol.

Ah, anyway, played soccer at Heights today. Under the heavy heavy downpour . . .
And once again, the ball bought today is gone ! Lol.

And . . . I doubt I'll get a chance to play against the sec 4s on monday. There're more than enough talents, even better players than me, strikers . . . And I think only injuries would make way for me.
If not I'll just be a dumb fucker sitting there for the whole game.
Sighs, I'll end up going after all . . . At least there is a chance. But I'll just feel so fuck if I don't play at all, or just play for the last 5 minutes, it just feels so . . . Extra ? Like I'm just going in there just for the sake of having eleven players while the time pass ?

I'm still pondering . . . . . . . . . . . .

The clock never seem so alive

"Cause it's you and me, and all of the people.
With nothing to do, nothing to lose.
And it's you and me, and all of the people,
and I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes of you . . ."

Gahgah, my mom couldn't make it today . . . She's been like meeting people in Singapore, and she might get a job over here. I'll be happy if she does, but it's her career after all, she should be happy with what she's doing, heh.
So I had dinner with my aunt and brother at Jurong Point's NewYorkNewYork. The meat platter turned out terribly huge, it's really worth the money, you can die eating, hah!

And . . . I've got a new phone which I can be satisfied with, I guess. K770i, only $18 after signing a 2 year contract with M1. I'm not using the line, some others in my family may need it, maybe my grandfather, lol. It's not bad, 3.2 MP though, doesn't make people jealous, lol. You know what they say, a watch shows a man's wealth or value, something like that. I have this mentality, a handphone shows a teen's value, ha fuck lame --"
At least I'm not using that China product anymore, and hopefully I won't need to use it again, lol.

Soccer or lunch with my mom tomorrow . . .
Soccer, most probably. I don't think I wanna do something I'll end up feeling reluctant. But it'll disappoint my mom :\

Ah, tomorrow then see how . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Let the music take control, that sound is beautiful, and I'll never let it go

Champions League - Quarter Finals 1st Leg Highlights
Man United 2 -2 FC Porto
Manchester United v Porto


Villareal 1 -1 Arsenal
Villarreal v Arsenal


Barcelona 4 -0 Bayern Munich
Barcelona v Bayern Munchen


Liverpool 1 - 3 Chelsea
Liverpool v Chelsea


Bayern Munich was expected to be trashed, they are pathetically standing at 5th place in the league while Barcelona has been in a superb scoring form. Surely Barca has booked a place in the semi finals . . .
And Liverpool suddenly look so frail after the performance against Chelsea. Conceding 3 away goals and the stunning thing is that the Chelsea right back, Ivanovic scored twice, lol. Nevertheless Liverpool will be Liverpool, they're full of surprises, and you might not know what they'll do in the 2nd leg. Plus, John Terry will miss the next game after accumulating his second yellow card.

Anyway, as long as United get all the way to the finals, nothing else matters,
and they will win everything this season !

There's still a million things unsaid and done

SG Flyers with mom.

Hmmm, she looks older in photos, she's really younger and prettier in real life. I look horrible too, I look horrible in photos when I smile, but I'm just dazzling when you see me for real, I know that, LOL !

Anyway, played Left 4 Dead with Ben, Matt and Weng at Parklane just now. Everyone's talking about it and I was so bored at home . . . So I decided to go to a LAN shop for once, lol.
Rather fun . . .

Tomorrow will be an awkward day . . .


Save One - Story Of The Year (Current blog song.)
I took precious life for granted,
In the time yours was in bloom
So without it I'm here in my life's afternoon.

Time always seems to take forever,
When everything you see is new.
But in a moment I found that that's not always true. (not always true)

Cause the morning's over now,
and the search for higher ground,
So much easier said than done.
When you're not here.
And the morning's come and gone,
Standing here under the sun.
So much easier said than done.
When we're all here.
Save one.

In our young mind it was easy,
To plan a lifetime like a day.
Just as easily to find it all taken away. (Taken away)
And now I stand in devastation,
Where my world crashed down today.
Never thought that I'd hear the last words you would say.

But the morning's over now,
and the search for higher ground.
So much easier said than done,
When you're not here.
And the morning's come and gone,
Standing here under the sun.
So much easier said than done.
When we're all here.

Save one. Save one.

And I assumed you'd always be there.
Now the moment that you've fell.
And tomorrow bids farewell (farewell).
What you left behind is greater
(Than a photograph can tell.)
The memory has failed.
Though you're time's done with the sun.
There's still a million things unsaid and done.

But the morning's over now,
And the search for higher ground.
So much easier said than done.
When you're not here.
And the morning's come and gone,
Standing here under the sun.
So much easier said than done.
When we're all here.

But the morning's over now
(And you're not here.)
And the search for higher ground.
(But you're not here.)
And the morning's come and gone,
Standing here under the sun.
So much easier said than done.
When we're all here.

Save one.
Save one.
Save one.

The truth shall set me free

'When the sun is gone, and the rain starts to fall,
I will be the one, I will rise though it all . . ."

Had dinner over at my mom's place that's in Singapore, well she can cook really well yeah, lol.
Nice sausages, and flour that's like rice but it's not rice nor it taste like rice, but it's nice, haha.
Headed over to take the last ride of the day at the SG Flyers. And the robot was saying "Now, you're on top of the world . . .", my foot, I can't even see my house, lol. Nice experience though . . .

Went over to Esplanade after that, had this Tapio Tower, in which you use the tap to refill your cup, nice, lol? Lychee vodka, superb, the best alcohol ever, hah! Best friend joined us today, haha! It was really that awkward as expected, did talked and laughed a fair bit . . . Headed home around 1.30am ?

CC followed me home and caught the Champions League in which both our favourite teams drew :\.
Good for Arsenal as they drew 1-1 against Villareal, away goal. Fantastic strike by Adebayor cooly assisted by Fabregas, lol. While United's at the losing end, drew 2-2 against Porto at home. They have to win in the 2nd leg, and I'm sure they will, for they are Manchester United of course . . .

And best friend just left my place, I'm going to bed.
MorningNightByeFuck.

Guess what, my brother and my grandmother are childishly bickering like some bastards and bitches, mother fucking shit . . . I'm on the verge to beating someone up . . .
Heh . . . Irritating fuckers . . .
Why do I even have the mood to blog about this, lol !

Rebuild until my back breaks

Meeting my mom tonight, for dinner in which she's cooking, lol.
And maybe a ride at the SG Flyer ? Haaa ~

GunZ . . . . . Oh yeah, I'm back in it again, lol.

ps: One hand all satisfied, on the other filled with "don't-know-what-to-do"s.

Man United 3 - 2 Aston Villa

Manchester United v Aston Villa
Uploaded by Doleymai

Cause Manchester Rules

I was with my mom at the United cafe bar, and their motto's . . .
"We bring you the BEST moments"
Well, they sure did showed one of the best moments of Manchester United.
Man United 3
Ronaldo 14, 80
Macheda 93
Aston Villa 2
Carew 30
Agbonlahor 58
I would have cried like an asshole if I'm at home, I was just so fucking happy. I was in the public so I had to hold back my tears, a few drops escaped though, lol.
Remember the name, Federico Macheda, 17 years old striker for Manchester United, very very promising youngster after today's performance . . .
Ronaldo did very well as well, scoring the stunning opener from an indirect free in the penalty box after Villa were fouled for a back pass . . . And also a very good equaliser in the 80th minute.
My heart beat was like at top speed after Ronaldo scored the equaliser, a little more faster when United were attacking at the dying moments, the time seem to be racing while United were fighting for the winning goal . . . . They were just so determined, chance after chance, until 3 minutes into stoppage time, Macheda who played for the very first time in the Premier League, recieved the pass from Giggs, turned away from his marker very very skillfully, and then curled the ball, it curled and curled, the Villa goal keeper dived, my heart skipped a few beats and then boom ! The ball went pass the keeper and went into the net. Fantastic finish, absolutely majestic.
It would not only be a memorable goal and moment for Macheda, it would be memorable to all the Red Devils fans out there . . . It's really one of the best, maybe one of the top 10 memorable moments, LOL !

And the atmosphere there is just crazy and high, the whole place was just chaotic when the winning goal was scored. And when the match was finally over, the song "Glory Glory Man United" was played, a Man United flag was waved around. It seems like none of them were pundits or gamblers, there were just fans, they watch for the sake of their passion, the sake of football, and the sake of Manchester United.
None of them were giving up hope when United was on the losing end, the atmosphere just gives you the kick. Watching people biting their nails, keeping quiet, cursed when a chance was miss, or burying their head in their hands. Some looking miserable, some looking determined and sooo into the game, and at the end everyone was just jumping for joy, Lol . . .
I don't know. . . The experience is just great. With a mom who loves United too, it's just great . . .

United are still a point above Liverpool with a game in hand, and they will win the Premier League for the 3rd time in a row (:
Clenched fist, kiss it and punched the air,
that's the way we do things for we are Manchester United ~

Highlights will be up once compiled and uploaded in Google or something . . .

ps: It's like put back torned up bits of paper back, piece by piece.

So obvious, predictable

This has got to be the best mom ever. It was extremely awkward at first when I picked her up at Terminal 3, but we end up having wine and a shot, breaded butterfly prawns at a bar at Vivo, talking stuffs you don't talk with your parents, like love life, dirty talks, lol ! It just felt great after all, and the bill was like $100plus and she paid for all =X . . .
And . . . She doesn't look like a women who gave birth to two kids at all, she's so hot! LOL !
Really, pretty gorgeous for her age, heh ~

I still feel a little groggy right now . . . Best friend's at my place . . .
I'm afraid I'll end up slanging naturally as well at the end of the day, ha!
NOT !

Gonne watch the United v Villa game at the United Cafe, with the best mom, lol !

And the shit thing is . . . I left my c902 in the cab, on the way to TYY's place 2 nights ago, with a fucked up driver, and my precious phone is never coming back to me, ever again.
Fucking shit, I hope crash into a tree and die with his head severed from his body.
Knnbccb . . . I've only owned it for a month and it's gone already, just so fucked. I was so fucking unlucky that day kay . . . My mom's flight got delayed for a day, I left my favourite slippers in the toilet after the soccer game with my uncle, being fucking absent minded, I also lost half a pair of socks which I just bought, I don't know how, why either, and ultimately, I lost my new phone. Dumb fucking shit hole . . . I still feel fucking miserable about my phone . . .
Fuck fuck fuck fuck !

Sighs . . . . . . . . . Nothing I can do about it anyway . . . . . Save up for a cheaper, older version of Cybershot I guess, cause . . . It'll cost a bomb buying c902 without a signing/upgrading/renewing a plan . . . . Just so . . . FUCK !
Seriously fuck the driver . . . It's like I found out that I lost my phone around 10 seconds after I alighted the cab, and the cab was at some traffic light like 20/30 metres ahead of me waiting for the light to turn green, and CC was calling my found, the driver did not pick up. Call and call and call for more than 10 times, still no fucking answer, I ran for the cab, from People's Park Centre, all the way till The Central. And eventually my phone was turned off, wow!
Fuck the driver . . . SMRT Customer Service sucks much as well, they can't seem to do a fucking thing about it. Do they even know how much inconveniece it caused ? To terminate the services for the sim card inside and then getting a new one, and . . . My phone, my precious precious phone. . . .

Okay, the ranting's endless, I'm going to sleep.
Fuck . . .

Should have go but I've lost my judgement

Dumb fuck, the bloody flight was canceled due to the faulty engine, chicken pie . . .
I feel more bad for my mom, she's been at the airport since 12 in the noon (Singapore time), delayed for 7 hours before informing her that the flight's postponed zzz . . .
So she'll be here tomorrow, booo ~

Anyway, they field game with my uncle wasn't really satisfying, too many players, so I just played the first half, only :\
I didn't really touch the ball, didn't not even had the chance to take a shot, gah !
Had some sleek one-touch passes though, 360 and diving, ha!
I was actually playing for uncle's beer company team, lol, so most of them are middle aged men, lol.
Maybe there's we'll play again next week? I don't know, hopefully, heh.

I lurrrvvve the orange jersey, and socks, that were provided siol, lol.

Candles burn slowly, flames shine so brightly

Got up around 12pm today, it's 3.30pm right now.
Headed down to Queensway just now and bought my biological mom's present, kinda random and last minute, at least I made the effort, lol.
Bought stuffs for myself too, including socks, shin guards and a shoe bag for the field game with my uncle in an hour's time, heh.

A few months ago, I was rather elated that my mom's coming,
but now I just feel nervous, afraid of the sheer awkwardness, I guess :\
She'll be here for 9 days and hopefully we'll have some good bonding time,
after 12 long years, lol.

Eat, bye !

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reason why

Had Carlsberg at the Kallang bridge, ate gong bao frogs at Geylang, walked from Geylang to City Hall then took the first bus home, lol.
Crazy . . . . . .

Today's a very very boring day . . . . . . . Sleepy. . . . .
Biological mom's coming back to Singapore tomorrow, for 9 days.

:)

Thailand gay

SAWADIKUP,
HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY, LOL !

Work was so slackkkkkkkkkkk !
Tonning laterrrrrrr !

:D