Body shaking, darkness fading ~

Republic Poly fucked me up . . . And it's also the last day of ITE enrollment, and so my I've gotten into my JAE posted choice, accounting in the East College, Simei. Sighs, kinda disappointing though . . . I'm prepared though . . . Well, fretting for a while doesn't harm, I'm just gotta get over with the disappointments and live with it, make full, good use of what I'm exceptionally good at, get to a better poly rather than RP, certainly, in two years time.
Yes, it's one heck of a long route, detour . . . But at least it does bring me somewhere.

At least, I don't need to wear anything like a uniform, nor I need to think of the different outfit every single day . . . Just black pants, and a white polo T, lol.
I just need to make myself feel good and comfortable about it, I'm gonna work hard. I'm not just going into ITE for the sake of just going there to waste my time or delay my NS . . . The impression of me may be a little dented, to know that "Oh, he's from ITE", it surely sounds better, looks nicer to show that I'm from Poly, oh well . . . I guess I deserved this, for playing too much last year. I guess no one would even be surprised that I'm in ITE.
Ah, whatever, it's not a bad place anyway, if I don't get influenced badly, I know I won't because I don't like those people myself, heh . . .
It's not the end of the world, it's a beginning, time to start working hard ? Certainly.
Thanks for all the consolations anyway, everyone, really (:
With inspiration I SHINE, With Imagination I SHINE, lol.


Met best friend in the evening, had steamboat at Tiong. And then bloody walked around Orchard, looked for CC's favourite Yuzu jam in which we couldn't find . . . And he also wanted to buy a bag from Zinc, and the outlet in Cineleisure changed into some skater's shop, ended up going home empty handed, haha!
But we did watched Street Fighter, Legend of Chun-Li, lol . . . Kinda stupid, Edmund Chen is such an embarrassment . . . And Chun-Li, a chinese girl, grew up and turned into a caucasian, haha!
It's just so twisted . . . I guess the Wolverine movie would be so much better.

Oh, there's work tomorrow morning, nights (:

Don't hold me up now, I can stand my own ground, you won't let me down

Lol, ended up skipping work today, feels great to be a part timer, although what I did really sucks, lol =p
And so, I went to school and collected my O's and graduation cert and stuffs, felt rather strange, awkward when I first stepped into the school, cause I was the first to reach and alone, lol. Weng skipped lessons, came and accompany me till everyone's here, and until Miss Tay persuaded him to go back to class, hahah . . .
Dilly dally here and there and finally we arrived at Purmei, played soccer.
Ball flew into the "forest", can't find, Matt and Ben went to Tiong to get a new one, lost it too to the dumb forest again . . . . . --"
Anyway, it's been effing long since I've played, my stamina just sucks to the coreeeee . . . .
Scored a few goals though, breath-taking ones, lol !
Had dinner at KFC, I had to beg to lend money to eat, how pathetic . . . Then slack for a few hours, until around 12am . . . Checked my account to find that $900+ has been transacted into my account, pay's here ! Now I'm definitely a more different person, a more confident and generous one, hah! :D

Tomorrow's DAE Result Day.
For the good, for the worst, I'm prepared . . .
RP, please take me in, I promise, I'll be a good boy, lol.

Give me one good reason why

1. Relatively quiet though, work was just fine . . .
2. Staff meal sucks today :\
3. Getting my O Level cert tomorrow.
4. Playing soccer tomorrow (:
5. Can't play for long cause there's work at 6 ):
6. Enjoy the Visa advertisement by Ben and Riyas right below, LOL !

Carry me, away away away ~

I felt a little rusty when I just started work today, but in an hour's time, I've gained back my sleek touches, absolute flawless moves, simply dazzling to the eyes, LOL !
Anyway, I have to admit I felt slower than before, but I have this excuse that I've stopped working for 7 days, it's good enough that I can produced such quality, and brag and brag and bragggg ~

Gonna drink, and have a hangover at work tomorrow, woo ! =p

ps: Winding back, even if winding back a month equals to winding back a day, slowly, maybe, I don't know, no hope put into anything, currently satisfied, just yearn the past, take my time, whatever time in the past I can get back, live again, whatever the outcome, doesn't matter, smile.

Tell me what it takes to see this through

Let me just take back my words of thanks and appreciation,
and then show you people my middle finger . . . _!_

I did not voice out anything for the 4 days doesn't mean I don't mind, I just do not want to spoil the mood, I just want everyone to be happy. And yet, I still got such a fucking nightmare . . .
Anyway, I just got to pay $75 for the whole chalet, and you paid the $200 deposit in which you could have got it back, you could have had fun without paying a single cent but now you're just gonna deal with this shit yourself, not my issue, and we might not be able to rent a place like that anymore, thanks alot huh . . .
It's not only me you affected, it doesn't really affect me that much, but it's a really big blow to others . . . And it's very embarrassing.
Studies aside, you're just useless . . .
Grow up, please . . .

I'm meeting best friend in a few minutes time, work tomorrow ! Lol.
Bye ~

Count it!

One year later
Met with death, miles, goodbyes
States, cities, friends all converted into time
Yet on the road
From family and home
It feels like, it just feels right

Show to show we saw the crowds grow
We played our hearts out,
We wore our throats down
And every drop of sweat that we bled has been worth it
Cause we earned it

We'll weather the rain, the sleet, the snow and oceans
Just to get through to you
We'll weather the rain, the sleet, the snow and oceans
Just to get through to you

Bringing this upon yourself

We're suppose to leave tomorrow morning, but decided to leave today . . .
I guess the chalet was rather boring ? I'm doing what I usually do at home . . . Played with my PS2, used my laptop (Thank goodness there's internet, lol), and read my book . . .

No alcohol, boo, I pathetically only had a bottle of Breezer by myself that's all . . . And my brother and friends were rather nice to give us some of what they bbq-ed. . . And also cleaning up the place, so here's just my appreciation, thank you ! :D

Nevertheless, there were still a fair bit of fun . . . Playing soccer/basketball late in the night like 3am at the circle basketball court, had long long night walks (Walked pass Red House but did not went in :\), first time I went to a mangrove swamp (nothing much though . . ), sat by the ocean with best friend then getting myself all dizzy at the playground, mahjong, rented 4 dvds and only watched one, haha! And the same old crappy stuffs we do as usual, I don't regret, I hope they had fun too (:

It's just the time with this bunch of people I'm cherishing right now, cause we might even lost contact maybe a few more years down the road. It may be boring and filled with nothingness, but I'm just happy after all. I don't know how long later we'll have a time like this again, or maybe never, who knows. . . Hopefully, there is . . . Sighs . . .

Link to photos.

Count it !

QZ must be so miserable that Lydia couldn't make it today, HAHA, JOKE, LOL.
So it was just Tricia and I, having dinner at my work place . . .
Dined and talk talk, silence, talk talk talk, silence silence, talk, lolol.
Rather nice though . . . It's been long . . . (:

I'll be back in 5 days time!
I know you all will miss me, lol =p

Hit the lights

Good morning people, lol (:

Best friend just left my house, QZ was last night . . .
And I'm going to sleep, like now, hahaha . . .

Meeting up with some people I've never met for a long time already for dinner at Shokudo, lol.
And then for the next 5 days I'll be in a chalet, woos ~
Maybe I'll do some packing before I go to sleep ?

Anyway, I've downloaded some album from Hit The Lights, exceptionally nice.
Here's one short and sweet one, heh.

Count It - Hit The Lights

你是否忘记了
那时候的笑容
如果我已不在你心中
舍不得为什么
你说过的以后
留下我能不能圆梦

那天空云很多
看不见你的轮廓
只剩下太多来不及说

(是我你好吗
没什么事
只是想知道你好不好
这是我最后一次打给你了
希望你好好照顾自己)

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂
等着你
我才发现难过

很难说有没有
想念过你的手
可能是我不愿去触碰
不记得本来你
有没有擦口红
反正是我已经错过

那天空云很多
看不见你的轮廓
剩下太多来不及说

想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
才等着你的手
拥抱我的寂寞
该说的时候
早应该大声的说
那种认真的沉默
弄巧成拙

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂

想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
已经擦干了泪
为何还有点痛
该说的时候
早应该大声的说
爱已经留下缺口
剩下沉默

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
去拥抱你要的梦

别担心我
我会好好过

The last day

I started the day off with a big smile on my face, heave a sigh of relieve when the day finally ended.
And so my full-timing days has finally come to an end, how nice.
Absolutely high while working today, practically in the bar for the whole day, I wanted to, lol.
Moreover it's on a Friday night, hectic, tiring, but as usual, I love the challenge.
And my good buddies were here with me, QZ, and best friend who was with me till 1am, heh.
Most importantly, I've gotten over all the disputes . . . (:
I guess we're all fine and friends right now, it just all ended too nicely, awesome ~

Sighs, looking back at the past 4 months, how I've climbed my way up to this stage.
Felt like a burden when I just started, when everyone's having a look out for me, doing mistakes which I think it's so damn dumb right now, but it's all part of the play . . .
How I picked things up, all those practice, to master myself at all fields, from a staff that was the least important, to an important figure in this restaurant, someone who can be depended on without any worries . . . And the knowledge and experience I've gained in this F&B service line, absolutely tremendous . . . The mentality of this business, the understandings. . . And I don't dread this line no more.
Someday I'll still have to leave this place, and I could get a higher pay in other places. Especially the bar . . . I'm just so proud of my cuppacino right now, it's been praised by the GM today =p.

I just feel so elated and relaxed right now, and of course, tired !
I've been having sleep deprivation for the last 4 months, and my face is certainly looking older.
I'm just living on caffeine to stay awake and alert and focus, the secret recipe that kept me driving all these while, lol.
And it's time to take a break, sleep like no mother business without worrying about being late for work, waking up by the sound of my phone's alarm, feeling so irritated and lethargic . . .

Shokudo Bugis, surely a place I'll remember for life ? So much good and bad times sweet and sour moments, and just when I thought it would all end in misery, and I thought of just resigning and not convert to part time, it all just turn out perfectly fine . . .
I would have gotten a $7 per hour pay if not for the cost cutting shit . . . Now it's just $6 per hour.
But at least I'm so used to this place and happy here, I don't feel like looking elsewhere,
until then . . .

I smell liberation baby ~

The guilt in your voice gives you away

1. Busy wednesday . . . ZZZ . . .
2. Eclipse is getting excited, I'm almost at the part when the Cullens are gonna deal with the newborns in Seattle, lol.
3. I'm not going for the Shokudo KTV tomorrow night (:
4. I'm so broke, for now, I need to borrrow alot from my parents for so much things, haaa ~
5. 2 more days of full-timing left :D
6. 5 more days to chalet, woo !
7. 12 more days to DAE results, I'm still keeping my fingers crossed =X

Winning 11, bye !

Destiny silent, hear no sound . . .

Damn the last few posts . . .

It's been a fine day after all. I found myself smiling, breathing, and eating.
I did not put anyone's mood down today, just perfectly fine . . . And I've been thinking, maybe . . . I've been, just blinded and distracted by the wrong one after all. Maybe I just had been there for the wrong one when she's down, and now that she's not, it's pointless for me to do the wrong things anymore, it won't make things right like before, it's just real pure wrong doings if I were to continue doing with these sins, it would only cause hatred to rise, jealousy, and more misery, I should really just step out of this boat before it sinks . . .

On the other hand, trying forgetting this distractions were backfired by the thoughts of the former one. Just flooded by the memories again, She'd just creep out of the sealed corner of my mind, she'd cover up my heart and mind with such beautiful agony . . . Those voices echoing "I miss you . . ."
I know it's a bad idea, if I should make a U-turn after a failure. It's hypocritical, and disgusting. I'm truly confused with my messed up love life. The former was surely the one best thing I'd ever, almost acquire in my life. How innocent, gorgeous yet humble, unique character, how unconditional those times were, how caring you were, how stupid was Ito lie, how close was I . . . Just the lies that shattered us thoroughly. I would trade anything in my power to reverse this screwed up life. I'm just so broken right now, I've been lured by the wrong path which just leads me to a dark pit hole . . . I really just wanna climb out of all these . . . Wrongs and find my way back . . .
Time wouldn't go back . . . . . . But time will heal . . . By then, I guess I'm ready, to give it one more shot.

I sound like as if I'm faking all these. I know people who understand this post would start saying ridiculous things about me, like a bloody idiot going for the wrong one when he feels hopeless for the former, and now the wrong one failed him, he says he miss the former.
I've been thinking about that myself too . . . I don't know . . . . . It would be really bad of me I know . . . My emotions are really unstable right now . . . I may be thinking of something else tomorrow. It feels so fucked up . . .Everyday this same shit feeling.

I'm not blaming the wrong one for my wrong ways, I know I can only blame myself, nobody's fault but mine . . . What goes around, comes around, this may just be retribution. For all my foolishness . . .

Nevertheless, my mind is a little clear now from all the blindness all these while . . . And I truly realized how much I miss these blanks _ ____ ___ . . .

I guess I won't be ranting about my love life anymore, it'll be awhile before I'll take that step again. I will be fine . . .

Back against the wall

I felt perfectly fine at work today, no pressure. . .
Something wrong had a fever and wasn't here, and QZ doesn't know anything about his schedule, so best friend was on last minute again, lol.

Dearest Thomas really shook some sense into me today, for the first time, heh.
He can be such a jackass, all the time, though . . .
Devil may care. . . Lol.

Tomorrow is going to be hard to live through . . . I knew days like these would come, but thank goodness I'm left with just 4 days, I will survive.
I'll be as normal as possible.

Do I still have time to chase my dreams ?

Dad's car . . .

Best friend . . .


Playing with dry ice . . .

Home . . .

Yogurt . . .

Wrong . . .

Hanged out at Esplanade's roof terrace for an hour or so, with QZ . . .
Until best friend arrived, had dinner at Marina Square . . .
Headed to Bugis, bought some ice cream cake and celebrated Suki's birthday plus 1 day, lol.

Sorry to CC and QZ, for causing all those big fuss about doing the wrong thing. I shouldn't have gone over to the wrong place when I'm not supposed to be there. The addiction to see the wrong one's driving me nuts. I've been on a mental breakdown for the past 3 days, I need a doctor, I need a cure to all these mess. I need to endure for another 5 more days before full-timing ends. Shokudo's a place where I used to loved to work at, but it's somewhere I dreaded, all the social pressure can just kill me any moment. I don't know how long more people are gonna tolerate my temperamental behaviour. My emotions seems to always take over my self-control, I'm always getting out of hand with myself, clutched fist, staring hard down at blanks. Lost of appetite for 24hours before best friend kinda forced me to eat. Is this what that is always, always what I get in the end ?

I'm better off dead . . . I'm feeling so . . . What people say "emo", over something wrong . . .But worthwhile . . . Am I just gonna wait and wait, spend my whole life waiting again ? Why am I always so over-obsessive. . . . Why am I always falling for the wrong ones ? Why did I lied to the right one ? Why must I always end up like this ? Sometimes I just couldn't breath evenly, hyperventilating at times . . .

I have almost everything thing I want, need. A new phone, new laptop, clothes etc . . .
But, why must my life always have to be severely fucked up by the opposite sex ?

Nevertheless,
I am persistent . . . Read it, remember it.

Send shivers down my spine, there's something wrong in this head of mine

With request from the dumb ass, lol . . .
This is how United beat Inter's ass ~

And this is how these lucky asses, Arsenal, beat Roma . . .


Around 2 hours ago was Friday the 13th, again . . .
A month ago, also Friday the 13th, I bought a pair of snowmans, and my heart broke as well on the eve of Valentine's day . . .
Nothing's change, it's still broken, broken for the wrong things . . . Maybe even more . . .
Bearing 7 hours of isolation at work, refraining myself from doing the wrong things, trying to tolerate those spiteful indirect remarks at ease . . . Cried my heart out during my toilet break . . .
Trying my best not too look at the things that will overwhelm me with sheer jealousy, sheer misery . . . The pressure, the stress just kept giving me the blows, in silent. I could do nothing, I couldn't voice it out . . . I'm shattered . . .

How long am I suppose to live at the downs of life, it's been fucking months . . .
I'm all to blame . . . Face of a winner, with the life of a down right loser . . .

Breaking down in tears again . . . Over and over again . . .
This vicious cycle never, ever seems to end.

Trapped in a world of endless days

Road to Nowhere - Bullet Of My Valentine
Tired and lonely still we stand
On a road to nowhere
Trapped in a world of endless days,
My engine's stalling (Road to nowhere)
Body and mind are breaking down
On a road to nowhere
Destiny silent, hear no sound
As I wait forever.

Farewell, I'll miss you
I'm sick of these goodbyes
'Cause it tore us apart right from the start
I miss you

Feelings have failed me
Left me cold
On this road to nowhere
(Road to Nowhere)
Dreams are my saviors,
Save me now,
'Cause I know I'm fallin' 

Farewell, I'll miss you
I'm sick of these goodbyes
'Cause it tore us apart right from the start
I miss you

Candles burn slowly,
Flames shine so brightly
Light in the darkness,
Save me from madness again

Only the lonely,
could possibly know me
Heat keeps on rising,
Fire engulfs me again

Keeps on rising

Farewell, I'll miss you
I'm sick of these goodbyes
'Cause it tore us apart right from the start
I miss you

Farewell, I'll miss you
I'm sick of these goodbyes
'Cause it tore us apart right from the start
I miss you

It's 3am, Just bought eggs from the 24 hour Shop and Save right beneath my home . . . And had my instant noodles . . .
The ambience was so empty . . . Not a single soul but the cashier, the wind was still, way too still.
And it just makes my footsteps slower, hanging my head, looking at my walking feet. . .
Blablabla, I'll end up writing a composition if I continue, lol . . .

I've changed the song in my blog, I guess it's sickening to many viewers, it's my current favourite song though . . . Watching Us Die Tonight is by far the best of the best BFMV could ever produced, which makes me more in love with those metalcore ass kickers, lol.
Road To Nowhere (The song in my blog right now) is something much lighter, very very very nice too . . .
Fyi, these are songs from there Scream Aim Fire deluxe album, just downloaded them yesterday, there are two more songs, One Good Reason and Ashes Of The Innocence, superb . . .
Bullet For My Valentine simply owns, heh ~

Anyway, I've spent my off day, doing the wrong things, again . . .
Left my friends out for the Dragon Ball comedy (they claimed the movie was funny, lol) . . .
But I eventually, I met them again for a little while after I'm done doing my sin, sigh . . .

Addiction, temptation . . . Heart beat accelerates everytime I'm close to the wrong one.
Will it be right one day ? But even if it turns right, it'll leave one out wrong, which makes things still wrong for me. . .
It's just complicating, I'm so confused with what I'm doing . . . .

I'm so gonna leave a stupid impression on every viewers.
Fuck the situation . . .

Watching us die tonight

How work is ever so pleasant,
with the presence of the wrong one ever so present.

The guilt behind these smiles . . .

The mind says, go away. The heart says, take her with me.

Man United 4- 0 Fulham
FA Cup, Quarter Finals (Fantastic goals)

And United are through to the Semi finals (:

Sadly . . .
Liverpool 4 - 0 Real Madrid (Agg: 5-0)

The reason why Real Madrid are looking so shitty is because Ruud van Nistelrooy isn't playing, simple as that, lol.

Best friend helped out at my outlet yesterday,
due to our lack of staffs, again. Lol.
And he also stayed over at my place, watched Champions League and idle around Facebook.
Played some music challenge, and . . . The very famous gay shit, Pet Society. LOL !
And I'm so sleepy right now, and I still got to go to work . . . ZZZ . . .
On the other hand, it's an off day tomorrow (:

Painful bliss . . .

If this is going to be worthwhile . . .

Look at what you've done . . .

Supposed to end work at 6.30pm today, but instead I was in the restaurant from opening till closing . . . Doing free labour from 6.30 onwards, priceless labour I should say . . . Lol.
I did it willingly, without anyone asking me to stay, it's just that . . . . . I don't know.
Maybe I'm just dumb, heh. But I'm happy about it, no doubt . . .

Or maybe I'm just an asshole all these while trying to make things so hard, difficult.
I will feel guilty at times, that I'm just a fucking hypocrite . . . Hypocrisy, from jealousy ?
Causing all these . . . Confusion, antagonism, desperation . . .
Is this just part of the whole play ? Will I ever get to show my light, rather than all these darkness at the end ? Or will all these troubles cause a load of, painful catastrophe ?
Happiness is on one end, but it's causing the other end to feel more panic and desperate. And when the other end was having happiness, this end's miserable . . . Why must it be this way ?
The reason, I'm the one to blame. If I'd never existed, or should I say . . . If I'd never start pulling the other end of the thread, and cause and provocation, and intimidation, and . . . Ah fuck, it's just repetition . . . Happiness is just the facial outlook, but behind it is full of . . . Fucking crap .

Cut short, I'm happy and afraid . . .

I'm just spouting rubbish all over the place . . . . . .

Happy 73rd Birthday to my lovely grandfather (:

All these thoughts

An hour since I've hung up the phone . . .
It's just something I feel like blogging about, it's something I've yet to admit here, or maybe it's already obvious.
What the hell am I thinking about right now - I don't know . . . Or maybe I'm just afraid of certain readers, that's why I'm afraid of typing certain things.
You see, before I started typing, I wanted to just speak out my mind, and right now I'm still hesitating, and now, I don't feel like continuing anymore . . .
I know it will change a whole lot of perceptions, some would think "Oh this guy is just a big flirt."
Or some would be happy that I've gotten over something, and this is something new.

Oh well, you see, now I'm making the whole lot of it . . . Obvious. . .
Thinking this, thinking that. Is this really love, or maybe I'm just being a jerk.
Maybe it's just to early to say all these, I'm just going through all these stupid lunacies, and then what's next? - I don't know.
Hopefully time would tell what the fuck I'm up to right now . . .

And I guess there goes again, this post will be labeled as - Emo.
Or, maybe this shit is just insensible and incomprehensible. Fuck . . .

You're just another star that burns out to quickly, but I still see you shining. I'm just another guy that's fucked up immensely . . .

Cleared one of my PH today = No work today, lol.
Met CC at Queensway, bought contact lenses and had late lunch at Mac . . .

Then . . .
Something, something, something ~

"I'm not holding any hopes up high at all, not for now.
I should fear, for the villain decided not to be a villain no more.
And it seems pointless for the hero to be a hero anymore . . ."

Can, you, help, me, find a way to carry on again ?

So I was in the bar the whole day, so confident I felt, lol.
I was performing a one man show for almost the whole time, I felt even more powerful than the kitchen, haha! "Bragging bragging . . . .", LOL . . .

Anyway, work ended at 11 for me today, and my dearest Thomas is so kind to let me off 10 minutes earlier, haha!
Met the other 2 parts of the Shokudo trio at Cine, watched Marley and Me, in which I think it's rather nice, exceptional, while they think it's boring and it sucks :\
Reached home around an hour ago, the cab fare is shocking and of course, heart breaking, but I guess it's all worth it . . .

I would also like so congratulate you, yes you . . .
Glad that you are happy with your results, and glad that you can get into any U that you want (:
Thank my prayers, I haven't been doing that for 51487395934750 years, lol . . .

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone the nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Did you think that I would cry, over the phone?
Do you know what it feels like being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, swing,swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Wish cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old
They bend they fold
And so do I to a new love

Did you think that I would cry, over the phone?
Do you know what it feels like, being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, swing,swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Bury me (you thought your problems were gone)
Carry me (away, away, away...)

Swing, swing,swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Swing, swing,swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Swing, swing,swing from the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way?

There you go, somewhere you're not coming back

Another fucked up day at work . . .
Dropped a tray of cups, spilled cream sauce on the floor then the customer, broke a smoothie glass . . . Fantastic right ? Lol . . .
I'm so used to all these crap already, I'm just so prone to accidents, danger magnet, heh . . .
Anyway, Ong, KH and Gary came over to my outlet, for . . . Nothing I guess, lol.

My disasters were forgotten when I came back from my lonely and boring shift break.
I was praised for my impressive bar performance, it's was rather hectic tonight, and I got through it without much help, errors . . .
Should I be working in the bar tomorrow night, Friday night, I hope I'll shine . . . Lol.

"I know I'm doing a wrong thing,
but sometimes, the wrong is good and eventually things will turn right ?
Am I the hero disguised with the look of a villain ?
Will I turned out victorious when I'm in a state of defeat right now ?
Who is genuinely good or bad . . . I guess, time will tell . . ."

We're in a spell that never ends

Newcastle 1
Lovenkrands 9
Man United 2
Rooney 20
Berbatov 56

Awww, van der Sar's clean sheet streak has come to an end after 14 games in the Premier League ):
Nevertheless, United got another win, surely on the way to clinch the title for the 3rd time in a row (:

It was rather short handed at work every now and then, thanks to the bloody cost cutting. I don't understand why either . . . Look at NewYork NewYork . . . It's under the same chain as Shokudo and they can have 10 staffs working on a weekday, 12 on Fridays and Saturdays. Pathetically, we'd just have 3 staffs on weekdays, and the most 6 on the peak days . . . dumb fuck . . . Luckily, I'm already god-like, lol !
Citylink has even "sacked" all their part timers, including best friend and Gary. But . . . Thank goodness they still can work, if they want to, over at my outlet or Cineleisure . . .

I'm going off to work now, and my full-time buddy's off today, I'll feel aloneeeee . . . . . .
and tomorrow her A Levels will be out already . . .
GOOD LUCK :D

I go around a time or two, just to waste my time with you

Now that I have a good camera phone . . . . .




I slept 10 hours today, naisss . . .
Had dinner with QZ at Citylink's NewYork NewYork, and how nice was it.
My previous outlet manager's working there, and we got a free pizza, drinks, desserts, plus 15% staff discount, lol !
And the food there is effing delicious, now I think the food in Shokudo sucks, or maybe I'm just plain bored of them already, heh . . .
Of course, I ate till I drop, and also went to crap to make space for the incoming disgestion, haha!

Met CC at his outlet, and we all head to my place,
to do almost nothing, as usual . . .

Watched a few amazing beatboxing videos.


This is fantastic . . .

And this is utterly stupid, lol.


Goodnight (:

Etched with marks but I can deal

"Yesterday was hell,
but today I'm fine without you, runaway this time without you.
And all I ever thought you'd be,
that face is tearing holes in me again . . . ?"


First of all, look who's Carling Cup champions ?

Manchester United had a tough fight with Spurs,all the way the score was 0-0, and it all went all the way to penalty shoot-out in which United won effortlessly, 4-1 (:
Let this just be an appetizer, there are 3 more trophies left to win, FA Cup, Premier League and the main course, the Champions League, they will do it . . . We're talking about the world's greatest football club you see . . .

The penalty shoot-out ~



It's counted as busy today, for a Monday. More like a normal Wednesday . . .
Off work at 6.30pm today, and my aunt got me my new phone, finally (:
C902, the one I've been eyeing on ever since I've got this job, lol.
Simply sweet red frame and back with a sleek black front, 5MP, plus a 4gb memory card.
Absolute perfectness, a new phone, a new laptop.
It just feels better when I worked out a hell of my sweat and blood (literally) for all these luxury, ha!

Buay steady, my outlet manager and one of my chefs went for Shokudo Citylink's steamboat and did not invite me, best friend was there too you know :\ . . . Lol.
I'm okay with it anyway, staying at home is good too (:

Congratulations to my mom for her official opening of her "Spring Spa and Nail".
It's her first time doing business, hope lovely fruits will be harvested at the end of the day (:
On the advantage, I get free facials, lol ! Nah, maybe I'll just get rid of my horrible eye bags after full-timing, heh . . .

Tomorrow's an off day ~
Is it a sign that my darkest days are coming to an end?
I saw a rainbow today, for the first time this year . . .

I apologise that my demise has everything to do with you

"You cut me down, but I feel no pain now.
This nightmare is almost through . . ."

Today's inventory day, something we do at every end of the month.
It's my first time doing it, till 2am, lol. Mostly slacking, though, heh . . .
CC came over, helped out a little, then the both of us plus QZ took the transport and we all dropped at my place. Talked for an hour or so, they cabbed home, lol.

It's gonna be another relaxing Sunday at work (:
I'm starting at 3pm, nice . . .
Nights ~

Oliver + Thomas Yang Rui Peng = Strawberry Dick Head