Liar liar, hanging by a telephone wire

Off day today, stayed all day at home . . .
I guess it was better off this way,
my legs needs some rest, lol.

And today, I get to see a better picture of everything . . .
I'll give all it takes to mend my mistakes, and it's time that will heal everything.
My heart and mind, they need a rest,
They really need a long break from now onwards . . .

Working day tomorrow, I'm turning in now . . .
Bye ~

Where ever you go I'm crawling, even when we're falling apart

Wow, it's the first time I touched the cash register,
and also made a strawberry smoothie and mocha float, lol . . .
It's rather interesting working at the bar, but it's shit closing it ZZZ . . .
Nevertheless, I'll have to be in the bar for a period of time someday, like Ong, haha!

It takes a whole lot of my guts to tell the truth,
at least I'm doing something I think is right to do, it'll be unfair if I don't . . .
But . . . What's next ?

Where ever you go I'm crawling, even when you're breaking me heart

If there's anyone should I hate now, it should be myself . . .
I, who can't make things better, instead made it worst.
I, who can only think about the past and not really much on what to do next.
I, who will always be on the losing end, always a loser.
I'm being pushed aside, and probably hated . . .
I want to be someone better, I would give the world,
but why am I getting all these shit right now ?
Is this all meant to be ?
This is not what I want, I mean why must it be this way ?

What can I do ?

Say it's true, I'll never ask for anyone but you

Hat-trick my foot, I scored zero, and we actually lost 3-2 . . .
Shall not talked about it anymore ZZZZZ . . . . .

There was a new full timer today who work as the runner with me today and she knows nothing, and I had to go through hell on a friday night.
Needed to teach her things, and do other things especially the food pick ups which did not stop coming, waffles, blablablabla . . .
And I was so tired after the soccer match, and I only slept for 4 hours last night :\
I went to bed at 2am but ended up sleeping around 4am, wtf kay . . . .
I'm just glad I've got through today, poof ~

CC's at my place again, lol.
Watching Arsenal v Aston Villa right now . . .
And by the way, United won Stoke 1-0 before that (:

Hmmmmm, and I met somebody whom I've haven't met for a very long time today, kinda sudden decision though, lol.
I guess we've left the past behind already,
and I'm glad that everything's okay now (:

But in anyway, life is still as black as the gutter . . . . . . .

Say it's true, or everything that matters breaks in two

I just got back from work, and having a hang over during work sucks to the core !
I felt nauseous, lethargic, and it's like I may puke anytime . . .
I was fucking hungry but I threw away the food after a few mouth of it, lol. . .
Luckily it lasted for around 2 hours only, felt better after that,
but I still couldn't stand the smell of the disinfective liquid we used to clean the tables, the smell of the alcohol , UUUHHHH . . . . Ahahaha !

I guess work tomorrow would be very tiring, cause I have to wake up so damn early tomorrow,
to play a match with the B Boys 2009 (:
It's been more than a month since I've played soccer, can't wait to score goals, hat-trick, maybe double hat-tricks, lol.
Good luck ~

Gonna bathe now, me feet stinks like garbage . . .
ps: 4 months knowing you, it's getting unknowing . . . ):

Merry Christmas, here's to many more

When the clock struck 12, people were celebrating the festive season,
while I was topping up the condiments at Shokudo, LOL. . .
Whatever . . .

I met CC and Gary after work, like around 1.30am, and thank goodness we were there.
We actually kinda saved a life on Christmas day, ahahaha!
Cause this girl/woman collapse while we were walking pass her, so we called for an ambulance, I tell you the scene was epic, to me =X . . . Felt kinda proud, lol !



And then we had a little Christmas "party" . . .
Got drunk after a bottle of Black Label, haha!
I think I'm having a hang over right now,
and I still have work later :\ . . .

Anyway, I would like to wish all of you a
MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D
May this season bring you joy, peace and love,
May all your wishes come true,
Celebrate the day (:
I won't be doing or getting any of the above though . . . . . . .
ps: Merry christmas to you . . . . . . . . . . . Sighs . . . . .

I'll give up all I have just to breathe the same air as you

Headed to Queensway to get my contacts,
then to GWC just to follow CC look for some monkey present, lol.
And then, over to my place to bore ourselves out ZZZZZ . . .

The atmosphere was even more mundane the moment they left . . .
Like . . . So cold . . . filled with all my miseries . . .
It's not like I have not even tried pulling myself up before, I've tried many times already but sometimes I'll just breakdown and collapse, tormented by the thoughts that tears me apart and toss me into a world overwhelmed with remorse . . .
You people may think I'm weak, emo piece of crap.
Seriously, I can't help it, when your broken heart breaks your mind and breaks you down, it's really uncontrollable . . .
Everyday, I'll yearn for a better tomorrow, but will that better day ever come?
I live the tomorrows that that didn't get any better, and it really worns me out, sometimes I just get so sick and tired. . . .
Letting go will be the last thing that I will ever do, and solemnly other that what the fuck am I suppose to do ?

I can act all strong as much as I want here,
but what's the point ?
ps: It's not that we're can't be just friends, I'm okay with that, but you seem to be drifting so far and treating me almost like a stranger. Remember you once asked me, "Eh meh meh, if one day we don't contact anymore will ___ ____ __? :D". Does that even concern you now ?

With every appearance of you, blinding my eyes

It's 6.25 in the morning right now and CC just left my house . . .
He's been such a nice guy accompanying throughout the many nights, hahaha . . .

It's my off day today (:
But I'm working tomorrow and christmas day itself :\
Probably there'll be no meaning to it anyway,
Christmas should be a season of love, joy and care . . .
I'll be spending christmas day in misery anyway, uh whatever.

Maybe the managers have already planned a surprise ?
Just a wishful thinking anyway, gah . . . But still I got a feeling something like that is gonna happen =X

Heading for the bed already . . .
I'm meeting CC later, again, lol.
ps: Even if we can or can't be friends, I'll be with you until the very end.

A black wind took you away from sight, and held the darkness over day that night

I was the last person to reach home yesterday, around 2.30am.
And I was one hour late for work today ZZZ . . .
It's okay anyway, I worked till 9pm, cause CC was called over last minute as we're short-handed, hahahah.
And I hit the target of promoting 15 bowls of Vongole (Clam) soup udon and I got my reward, spaghetti for dinner (:
They really have a good way of motivating the staffs huh . . . Lol.

Hmmm,
CC, Gary and Ong's at my house right now. . .
Watching Arsenal currently leading Liverpool 1-0, hopefully it stays that way, lol.

Thank goodness I'm working at 5pm tomorrow (:
ps: Even when pointless conversations arouse, I'm still not running out of patience.

Unconditionally and irrevocably

So we watched Twilight yesterday,
and I had a great impression of the storyline and I might just be reading it one day, lol.
MIGHT . . . . . . . .

Dined at Shokudo once again, Citylink's one . . .
Then CC stayed over at my place after work (:

Todayyyy . . .
Wasted 3 bucks on a ear ring,
cause after buying it, I realized it looks like crap after putting it on . . .
ZZZZZZ . . . .
And, oh yeah,
the pay cut's day is this Sunday,
I'll be getting money money soon :D

And CC's at my place again, and staying over again.
Lol . . . .
ps: I will hang on.

Why do you take it all, why do I beg for more? I never thought that this is how I hit the floor.

Thank my aunt hell loads for treating me lunch at V8 Cafe during my break today,
then bought me a naissss pair of jeans (:

Oh yeah, today a customer complimented on me.
About the waffle I guess, when I added more chocolate sauce for them and told them I made it,
HAHAHA! I really did made it . . .
Hopefully he'll send an email of compliment and I'll get 30 bucks woah !

And tomorrow is my off day :D
I'm gonna watch Twilight, and find out what's so special about it, lol.

Off to bed,
Nights ~
ps: I'll give you the best of me.

I guess it's too bad that everything we had is taken away

Yadayadayada . . .
I'm gonna boringly blog about work again, heh . . . . .
It's only my 3rd week working, and I feel like I've been here for a long time already, lol.
I'm not gonna drag on, it was rather boring today ZZZ . . .

Sighs, if you ever ask me how's life.
It's difficult and it isn't getting any better.
I want to go back in time, and replay those times when my smile was not broken yet . . .
ps: Just tell me what is going on . . .

There's always someone fucking hanging on, can anybody make things better ?

There was a new colleague today, and she's the only female part timer, LOL !
Like what Andi said: "She'll be the root to grow more girls . . ."
HAHAHAHA!
Hopefully, she won't get chased away by all the crazy staff, hahaha!

CC and Gary dined at my outlet today, we haven't even got our pay and we're eating such expensive food like quite oftenly, lol . . .

Gahhhh,
It's gonna be another long day tomorrow. . .
Byeeeeee ~
ps: It seems like it's destined to fail, but . . . .

There's always something different going wrong, the path I'm walking's in the wrong direction

I'm so exhausted, I haven't been getting enough sleep ZZZ . . .
Slept at 5am in the morning and worked at 12pm today.

And my parents and sister came today, HAHA!
Got the pizza and drinks for free (:

A few stuffs happened yesterday . . .
- Dined at Citylink's Shokudo with Gary and Charles, got our desserts for free, lol.
- CC and one of his female colleague suddenly went over to Bugis's outlet to work.
- Had free drinks at my own outlet with Gary.
- The hilarious taxi driver talked about whores and licking ice cream with cream/honey, HAHA!
- Gary and CC stayed over at my place.

Some bone on my right leg hurts like fuck the whole day, and the painful tear on my lower lip doesn't seem to be getting any better . . .
Maybe I'll die the next day, lol --"
I'm fucking sleepy and I'm turning in soon !
GOODNIGHT . . . .
ps: Why did you do this to me? How did you do it so easily?

I still . . .

I feel so sluggish . . . . . . . . . .. . .. . . .
I barely had 5 hours of sleep and I need to go to work already, wtf . . . ... . ...
At least, I'm going off at 6pm today, ehhhehehehehhh ~

There was a 3 hours straight of fullhouse-ness yesterday,
just imagine the stress . . .
Customers calling from all directions and you don't know where to start,
and then the more you hesitate, the more time you waste, lol. . .

I'm definitely going to switch to part-time after my first month,
6 days a week, 8 hours at least a day is really for someone with no life . . .
You won't even have the time to spend the money, haha!

I'm going off already, hopefully I'l survive, lol.
BYE !

What about me,
was I missed ?
ps: Glad you're back . . . . (:

Spending all my time stuck in yesterday

Seems like Wei Yuan is gonna be the Bar King soon, hahaha!
Improving tremendously sehhhh, lololol !
He even made me a Macha (Green tea) smoothie, woahhhh ~

I'm working till 1am tomorrow and starting at 10am the following day !!!
ZZZZZ . . . .

All hail Manchester United!
First in the group stage (:
ps: I'll be entirely embracing you that I've found to be sincere . . .

Hold back the tears, endure, stay strong

CC and I spent a rather boring day, at Bugis . . .
Like I've been there for more than a week, every single day,
and I'm there even on my off day, lol.

Anyway, we watched Four Christmases.
It's a rather humorous, movie, haha!
"Wanna have a click ? (On the tits)", LOLOLOL !

After that, we had dinner at Shokudo!
It cost us a bomb, around $40 . . . After deducting the cost of the drinks which are made free by one of my managers (:

Then we roam around the place . . . and then lifelessly waited for WY and QZ to knock off from work which dragged till around 11.30pm, lol.

I feel like I've wasted my off day, plus it's expensive ! ZZZ . . .
Whatever, it's a working day again tomorrowwwww. . . . . . . --"|

Oh yeah,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY,
CHARLENE :D
THAM THAM THAM THAM . . . .
BEST WISHES !
ps: Hopefully, you'll come back smiling at me . . . Sighs . . . (:

Stop pretending

I have to admit, sometimes I feel I'm hiding behind a smile filled with miseries.
I've tried my very best to stay strong, and I know I will,
I just need more time to alter the state of my mind . . .

At least for now work is keeping me busy and cheerful.
It's like the happiest time in the day, but when I'm home, I'll be too tired to think of anything but sleep, lol.

Today's an exception, it's just so sudden . . .
I don't want to feel like this, I really hate it, but I can't help it.
Feeling desperate, heart aching, depressed and desolate of the soul. I feel like I'm being stabbed and trying to smile and stay happy at the same time, I really don't know . . .
I really do not want to ever let go

Hopefully,
all the hopes will turn to reality and the tragedies to forgotten memories . . .

Dreams turns to dust, dust turns back to hope

My name was actually at Station 1 and F/Runner, lol.
Two positions! Woaaahhhh . . . . . . --"|

I have a colleague, his name is Jeffrey and he is one joke/prank fuck! HAHA!
Really can't stand him, he can be utterly irritating yet fucking hilarious at the same time, lol!
I regretted replying him "Yes", when he asked if I could take jokes =X
Anyway, it was another great day at work (:

Tomorrow's my off day ! :D
Maybe I'll dine at Shokudo for dinner, LOL !
ps: I hope you're having fun, I hope you're safe (:

You're the unaccented beat in my heart

I guess Ong had a fine first day ? HAHA!
The worst had yet to come, LOL !
I had a rather unfortunate day . . .
The worst mistake I made today was to topple a huge bowl of flour and I had to clean it like some mad dog ZZZ. . . Luckily it was in the kitchen though, heh . . .
And it was really hectic today . . .
I had to make a few waffles at a time, and there's only one waffle making machine or whatever you call it, at the same time, I had to do the food pick ups, cleaning of cutlery, refilling, etc etc etc . . .

Gah, it's certainly challenging,
but some of the staff and managers can make it, so why can't I ? lol.
I believe I can handle the stress when I fully master this position, hahaha!

Hmmm,
QZ and I had the same split shift schedule today,
so we went to watch The City Of Ember, lol.
It was fantastic for sure, you guys should catch it someday (:

I'mma have supper now, haha.
Byeee . . . . . .
ps: Wondering how you're doing . . . (:

River flows in you

I worked at a boring position just now, being the runner kinda sucks, I spent most of the time standing in between the kitchen, the bar, and the floor itself, always blocking the fast flowing staff while I clean the cutlery, bowls and or whatever. And the worst thing is that there's a clock right in front of me showing me how slow time is passing ZZZZZ !
On the other hand, making waffles and toasts was fun, lol !

Wrong orders make the managers angry but it makes me happy, haha!
I get to eat those food that cost a bomb for free (:

And. . . We finished cleaning up early today, and waited for the fucking shuttle bus for around an hour.
Nevertheless, crazy jokes cracked us up, especially when one of the staff made fun of the security guard which was super LOL !

I must admit I'm very satisfied this job, it's fatiguing though . . .
At least we can mingle around well, like most of the staffs are around our age and it's like all of them are in the normal stream, if not school leavers =X
Even the managers and kitchen staff, they're all full of crap, hahaha!

Oh yeah, welcome to our team,
ONG WEI YUAN !
LOL ! :D
ps: From the bottom of my heart, I'll miss you, really . . . lol, I'm making it so exaggerating as if you're not coming back forever . . . But still, 5 days will seem like forever =XX

I'm standing before you, this label on my head

Manchester United 1
Vidic 90(+1)
Sunderland 0

Not Rooney, not Tevez, not Berbatov, certainly not Ronaldo. . . .
It's United's center back, Nemaja Vidic who scored the late winner and win all 3 points for the Red Devils (:

Three of us only drank 2/3 bottle of wine altogether last night, wth . . .
And after eating our late supper we don't even feel like drinking anymore, lol.
Uh . . . Whatever . . . Aahahahahahah . . .. . . . --"

I'm working till 1am again today starting from 5pm ZZZ . . . .
I was kinda surprised yesterday, cause Friday night was 10 times busier than yesterday's, which is a Saturday. Hope it stays the same for today, lol !
Gah, I guess it should be okay (:

When I look up at the skies, I see you.
When I turn and close my eyes, it's you.
And when I'm sitting all alone in my room, everything reminds me of you.

I'm pleading before you, for you to understand,
how much I adore you.
I'll be there until the end,
when everything falls down,
will you hold my hand ?
ps: I guess you'll be asleep already by the time I come home and blog later ... Just wanna tell you, to takecare extra loads for the next 5 days, we won't even be making the slightest contact, I'll ____ ___, lol ... See you around then ... And don't stop smiling okay ? :D

All I need in this life is one thing to believe in

Having my 3 hours break again, split shift again . . .
At least, I'm working only till 10am today, and it's gonna be a very very busy night later on because it's a Saturday! ZZZZ !

I'mma relaxxxxx after that with CC and Gary, lol.
And Ong Wei Yuan is a pang seh kao . . .
Because of piercing his ear he doesn't want to join us, ahaha!


Manchester United's gonna kill off Sunderland tonight!
Hopefully Carlos Tevez will play (As Gary hoped for, ahaha!), as he scored 4 goals against Blackburn 2 days ago to send United in to the Carling Cup semi-finals (:
Too bad the Black Cats are without Roy Keane right now, lol.
Man United 5 - 3 Blackburn - Carling Cup Quarter Finals

ps: Good to hear from you! :D

Delusions of grandeur

Oh gawwwddd, so fucking tired, LOL.
I just finished work at 1am, and look at the time now !
1.51 am! and I have work at 11 in the morning ZZZZ . . .

Thank goodness, there's a free bus shuttle ride by my restaurant to send everyone home, the last one would be extremely unlucky, especially if you're living in the north area, which a few of my colleagues and managers are, hahaha!

Gah, anyway, it feels rather good, I've made great acquaintances for the past few days.
My work mates and managers are just entertaining, even at the busiest times, lol.
My outlet manager who is a lady said "Eh, very hot leh!"
Then my service manager who is a man replied "Strip luh, also nobody want to see. . . "
Hahaha! Cause she is rather overweight you see . . . lol ! =X
WHATEVER . . .
There's even free alcohol at the end of the day (:

I gotta go get some rest now,
Time check, now, 2.05am, boooo . . . .
Goodnight peepos! :D
ps: This time I'm really okay, hope you'll be too, soon. Okay? SMILE ! (:

I gave my all for you, now my heart's in two

Have you guys ever wondered why am I making such a rather drastic change?
LOL if you think it's for myself, heh. Nevertheless, partly, yes, just a lil' part, haha.
I guess most of you people who're close to me knows why . . .
You all may say it's the power of love, well perhaps ?

I'm a person who strongly believe that one should be him/her own true self, like how I used to . . . Maybe I was behaving rather notoriously, maybe extremely, lol.
But after certain circumstances, sometimes you'll just get desperate, and would do anything to pursue your hopes, dreams, ambitions, something you want really badly. . .
Some may cost the money, but some are just priceless, it's a matter of the heart . . .
I comes with sheer determination, perseverance, it's not just about the hard work, but also the heart work.

You may love others for who they are, but they might not treat you the same way . . .
And that is one of the reasons why people are changing, the world is changing, this asshole blogging in the middle of the night here is changing too.
Yes, I'll have positive effects on my myself, people start to praise me, I have a easier cash flow without spending on cigarettes, but all these do not even really matter . . .
I can behave like how I used to, people can hate me, lie to my parents for cash to buy cigarettes and then get broke very often, I don't care, I can take life very easy, the play before you think kinda attitude, 100% carefree . . .

But, It just take a single person to make you want to mend your ways, you want to leave yourself a good impression on the person, always. Some maybe be faking it which are most probably the majority, but the serious ones would willingly change for the ones they truly love . . .
If you think I'm one of the fakers, I can't comment on that, everyone has their own perception and I can't change that . . .
All I can say is, believe it or not, just wait and see, heh.

I used to think that I will never kick out smoking, but it's been 10 days since I've smoked, impressive, lol . . .
A friend told me " The world does not stop spinning because of a girl."
Well, the world does not stop spinning but my heart has stopped beating, haha! Just kidding, I'll be dead already --"
I'm not emo already anyway, I'm just not thinking so much right now . . .
As long as the other party is happy, and okay, I'm satisfied.
I'll do my best, give my best shot, and remember,
Hard Work + Heart Work = The Key To Success
LOL !

Perhaps, it's really the power of love, heh.

It's uncontrollable to think of you everyday

I'm having my split shift 3 hour break now, lol.
Gonna go back soon already, all the way till 11 . . .
Tomorrow's even more worst, until 1am ZZZZZ . . . .
Actually, it's okay, I don't mind anyway, hahaha!

Off I now . . .
Goodbye (:
ps: There will be sunshine and rainbow after the storm . . . Cheer up, smile alright ? :D

Until the day I die, I'll spill my heart for you

It's been a long time since I've felt like this,
Especially during dinner time, people are enjoying the food while I can only stare at the those tempting food like a fucking moron and work my fucking ass off, haha!
Anyway, one of my managers bought Mac for us at the end of the day :D
CC and Gary, be so jealous, I got a double cheese burger and you guys don't! LOL!
And my dad is too kind to fetch me home after work,
my lovely mom and sister tagged along too, heh . . .

I have split shift tomorrow and I hate it.
Like what am I gonna do for 3 hours ZZZ . . .
Most likely I'll go home, which is kinda stupid but I have no choice, lol . . .

I'm dead beat, diving into bed now, hahah . . .
Goodnight ! (:
ps:I just want you to know, with everything I won't let this go. These words are my heart and soul ...

Why did you do this to me? Why did you do this so easily?

First day of work
This job is way better than Seoul Garden and Toys 'R' Us, ahaha!
The managers are the by far the best ones compared to my previous employers and my colleagues are rather friendly.
Ong will be joining us (QZ and I) next week !
And. . . . The food looks very appealing, so do visit us at Shokudo, Bugis, LOL !
Anyway, I've switched to full-time which will fetch me $1.2k a month (:

I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence,
so please just break the silence . . .

I'll give you my heart on a string

Manchester City 0
Manchester United 1
Rooney 42
Manchester City V Manchester United

Cristiano Ronaldo seems to be in a bad mood recently, always playing with that irritated expression, haha . . . Eventually, he got sent off --"
Whatever it is, Wayne Rooney scored the winner, United won the Manchester derby and bagged all 3 points (:


Chelsea 1
Djourou 31(o.g.)
Arsenal 2
van Persie 59, 62
Chelsea V Arsenal

Robin van Persie, scored two goals to equalize and win the game for the Gunners.
Who cares if the equalizer's supposed to be ruled out for offside ?
All I care is that Chelsea are gonna slip up that's all =p


Gary and WY came over to my place last night to watch the matches . . .
Drank wine and then liquor, haha!
I'm not gonna elaborate about their drunken state,
I'll be an asshole if I do so, LOL.

Went to Bugis with QZ just now to get our shirts and apron for work.
Gonna start working tomorrow already (:
I want a laptop.
I want a desktop now, heh.

Tell me all of your hopes, all of your dreams
I want you to take me there
Tell me all of your hopes, all of your dreams
I want to take you there
And tell me everything, every breath
I want you to know I’ll be there
There’s just one more thing, one request
I want you to take me with you

Take me with you,
I will never let you down, and I will love you now and forever

ps: For the last time, just for lunch, okay? Just take it as I'm asking you out ask as a friend. I won't prompt you anymore, just tell me when you see this or whenever you feel like answering me. I'll be waiting . . . . You're the reason why I'm changing.