I don't wanna walk this earth if I gotta do it solo

Two and a half years ago, it was Eduardo with a sickening injury . . .



And yesterday . . . . . .
Arsenal's Aaron Ramsey horrific injury!




There's no video replay cause it's too terrible to watch . . . The pictures are heart breaking enough for Arsenal fans . . .
Well, tough luck ~

And later on will be the Carling Cup final!
Man United v Aston Villa . . .
GO DEVILXZXZXZ!!!

Back to where the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

Today started out all in smiles, sucks at the end . . .
I've already expected a situation like this but still I feel so fucked up and regretful.
Nobody understands me, not even you . . . I don't know what you want from me, but I ought to say that I'm sorry.
It's the worst birthday party I've went, with all the hatred overpowering an occasion which was meant to be a happy one . . . Shouldn't have went and we wouldn't be like this . . .
Even best friend couldn't be there for me much, I don't blame him, he's under some horrible pressure and I am obviously out numbered . . . I don't wanna pull the strings . . .
But somehow I feel so insecure, like I'm losing another friend, the most important one . . . The sight, the voice, the laughter just irks my fucking mind . . . And he was being surrounded by all off them, it's really a nightmare . . .
I hate this part of my life so much, fuck !

Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams

To hell with ETP!
WOO HOOO ! :D
It's all about practicing, drilling, memorizing now . . .
Now I find all these not as stressful as meeting deadlines for projects @_@


I find that my life, other than just friends in school, and Belle.
I feel like a loner . . . Friends in school are not as close as the ones I made in Gess.
How close and steady we used to be, it has all faded away . . . What's left are just the best memories.

Everytime I reminisce, everytime I look back, and then I look at now, it really feels so pathetic.
Even best friend . . . I don't wanna talk about it, and get blame for every fault again . . .
And her . . . Since then, it was 2008. 2010 now and I still do think about her once in a while, and everytime it ends with that same sour taste, sigh . . .
Life now is great, no doubts, stressful though . . .
But life then, was greater, absolutely unforgettable, I've live through it, and that's the only one time in my life that I'll ever go through the best days of my life.

It's almost a year in ITE, made some good friends, lost some of them, and during these times, I've build up a really good rapport with a bunch of crazy girls, found the love of my life, and also the worse bunch of people in which the sight of them sickens me, and voices disgusts me.
Everyday just hanging out with girls, all girls, like a sister, I must say that they are very open minded, hilarious, and brighten ups anyone's day. For we are Happy Medicine, haha (:

But that's really just in school, everyone is rather occupied after school unlike during secondary school when we'll always hang out all the way till night falls. . . But they are now, we are all separated and have already adapted to the life we're in now . . .
Thank goodness I'll always have Belle by my side . . . She is the only closest thing right next to me now . . . I really don't know who else can I turn to if she's gone . . .
Best friend? He's life is really filled up almost just one thing right now, sigh . . .

All in all, I must be satisfied with life now, at least I'm with the right group of people in school, people who are always full of smiles.
And Belle, and everything right now are doing perfectly fine . . .

If God does exist, grant me one wish to let me the best times of my life one more time, hah . . .
But too bad he doesn't and never exist . . .
Life is life, so I just have to get on with my life which I have already been doing it for more than a year, and I'm actually turning 20 years old next year, wow!
Life is short, live it, live it good, then leave in peace ~

Ps: Happy Meds don't feel jealous, I still love you all, lololololololol (:

Straight through my heart, she aimed and she shot me, I just can't believe it oh~

Almost a week since I've blog, unacceptable no no~
All because of iTouch and Prison Break, plus school work!
Lol.

Finally, all projects done and over, time to revise for the final papers.
Still fucked up . . .
Less then 2 more weeks to holidays, strive like how you did last semester.
GPA 3.2, surely it will drop . . . My attitude towards work have been deteriorating and it's really time to run the final lap of Year 1 and it will all be over.
Give me the strength, make me believe, I have faith in myself, GO !

MANCHESTER UNITED GO!
WAYNE ROONEY GO!
VAN NISTELROOY GO!
HAMBURGER SV GO!
DONOVAN GO!
HAPPY MEDS GO!
NICOLE BELLE GO!

Off to bed now GO!
Nights~

The demise of feeble christ as we rise as the Antichrist

Chai Shen Ye can doggy style Jesus backside, Gong Xi Fai Cai ! XD
LOL !

Since I couldn't afford the month phone bill of an iPhone,
I bought a 32GB iPod Touch today (:
It's quite nice to use, if only I get used to it, lol.
But unfortunately there's some problem with the sound, going back tomorrow to check or change, lol @_@

Final papers are approaching. . . .
My GPA will surely drop, sigh ~

I'm glad that one simple problem is finally over,
'm glad that he is happy now, but . . .
I still fucking hate every single one of you.

Back to stress

Forgotten to edit the colour --"

Played soccer yesterday morning with CC and his primary school friends, lol.
Then visited his house,then he visited mine (:

After he left I just rotted on my bed watching 7 episodes of Prison Break season 1, I know I'm so out dated @_@
Whatever, it's a very good show with full of ideas, and then set backs, and then more brilliant contingency plans, very very nice to watch XD

I've got quite alot of money in 3 days, and I'm finally considering an iTouch, haha~
Okay, fun has ended so quickly, back to school in a few hours time zzz . . .
Fuck ~

Money money money !

HUAT AH !!!!!!
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

What a happy day!
Parents woke me up this morning and we had Mac for breakfast, the head down to relatives' place and there was lion dance which got everyone so high especially my grandmother, haha!
And money money come come come! WOO!
Work from evening till 9plus, and got double pay plus tips, and ang baos!
I LOVE CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! HAHAHAHA! @_@
It's like one of the best times of the year surely (:

Met CC after work and show off my cold hard cash, hahah! XD
I'm home now and I can't wait for more tomorrow!
MONEY MONEY HOME MONEY MONEY HOME,
ALL THE MONEY PLEASE COME TO MY HOME !
HUAT AH !!!!!!!!!!
$$$$$$$$$$$$

GONG XI GONG XI FA DA CAI AH HEY !
Let's all get rich! (:

I'm too happy!!!! XD
Nevertheless, I did not forget you my dear valentine, I hope you're enjoying as much as I do alright?
Love you, miss you so much!
XOXOXOXOXO!

Wishing you a Happy Tiger Valentines'

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!
SPREAD THE LOVE!
HUAT AHHH !!!

Everyone please enjoy this festive day, more love and more money!
WOOOO!
Too bad Belle's going to visit relatives in Malaysia . . .
But we've already celebrated V'day so yeah, happy enough (:
There's 15 days of celebrating CNY, so she can still always come over and get ang baos, lol.

But right now, it's my time to get rich ! ! !
MONEY MONEY HOME MONEY MONEY HOME ~~~~
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$


Another thing to add on to the happiness, Ruud van Nistelrooy scores his first 2 goals for Hamburg and wins the game for all 3 points !!!
I was fucking elated, the moment I saw him put the ball into the net 2-1!
And then scores again 3-1!
Van the Man is back and heading for a spot at the World Cup 2010!
HAIL RUUD VAN NISTELROOY!
IN RUUD I WILL ALWAYS TRUST!



I will be waiting for you to come back! Try to enjoy okay? =X
Your bf will be a rich man by the time you're back, haha!
MISS YOU LOVE YOU!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO!!!

ENJOY PEOPLE ! :D

My insides all turned to ash, so slow

Celebrated Valentines' Day with Belle today ~
We initially wanted to have lunch at Sushi Tei, but this morning my contact lens cracked and I had to go to Queensway to get a new pair, I just wouldn't wear specs out --"
Found it troublesome to travel to Cityhall, so we just had our lunch at Ikea instead, wasn't so bad after all =x
Then Belle bought her new shoes, and I'm also glad that she love that exxxxpeeennnsssiivvveee gift from me, lolololol.
Head over to Tiong after that and caught the Valentines' Day movie which was very nice, very hilarious, and many many hot people in there. The lead actor from Ironman, the guy from Punk'd, Jessica Alba, Jacob and her girlfriend in the show, Taylor Swift~~~
Worth the money, terrific (:

And also, I got a $19.90 china 1GB Doraemon mp3 shuffle player for my sister, I'm claiming back the money from my mom though, lol.
Went to Chinatown with my mom, dad, sis and grandmother just now, and it's so damn crowded, noisy, sickening music . . . Ended up buying 3kg of sweets, some lame CNY stuffs, and some toy that grows grass XD

SLEEPY!
REUNION DAY TOMORROW GO!
CNY IS ON THE WAY, HUAT AH!!
$_$

I feel crazy

Man United drew against Aston Villa and Nani got and the man on form is suspended for 3 games including the Carling Cup Final against . . . Aston Villa :\


But thank goodness Everton beat Chelsea 2-1, two goals from the former United striker Louis Saha. Thanks to him, United are now at least one point closer to Chelsea.


And also, after suffering a 3-1 lost to United and 2-0 to Chelsea, Arsenal beat Liverpool and are once again, back in the title race ~

Role play was quite okay today, unlucky thing was that something unpleasant made the teacher so moody, hope it does not affect my grades anyhow, I know I did a decent job, lol.

Then, met CC at Cityhall for our "appointment", lol.
Hanged out and reached home around 4plus ~

Will be celebrating an Valentines' Day in advance tomorrow, as she will not be free on CNY.
Poof ~

99 times, you look me in the eyes

HAPPY END OF THE WORLD
PART IX

My Ex is fantastic!
This month is special cause we spent the day with happy meds (:
Smuggled Subway into the cinema, and enjoyed a foot long bread during the show XD

I'm so tired, sleepy and still unwell, going to sleep soon zzz . . .

Jiggy getting ~

Man United 5
Rooney 40
Vanden Borre (Own goal) 45+1
Carrick 59
Berbatov 62
Wilson (Own goal) 69
Portsmouth 0

Manchester United v Portsmouth
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Own goal bonanza!
Wayne Rooney scored yet again, Nani with a sublime skill to create yet another own goal, haha!
Carrick shot deflected for an another own goal or is it a Carrick goal, many different decisions on several website but personally, I'll credit the goal to Carrick, haha! Berbatov scored the best goal of the game due to a terribly horrible defending, and the game ended off with the 3rd own goal, or is it just a 2nd . . . Haha!
Makes no difference anyway, United are finally at the top, and hopefully Arsenal beats Chelsea tonight so that United will remain at the top!


And well well well ~
Ruud van Nistelrooy has finally made his debut for Hamburg, in the 89th minute of ther game though --"
And Hamburg was stupid enough to go from a 3-1 win, to a 3-3 draw at the last minute zzz . . .
I'm sure Ruud will get back to 100% fitness sooner rather than later, and start scoring goals! (:

I'M FINALLY GOING TO START ON MY SVE SCRIPT NOW!
FUCK!

Oh!

Fucking WFB whore . . . I've never hate a teacher so much since secondary days, lol.

Spent $200+, on a yellow T and a purple T, 2 pairs of jeans, a pair of Kappa shoes, and a belt.
I only shop for clothes like this once a year, makes me feel so poor @_@
And I'm already broke, and I can't wait for CNY to come to get the cash flowing in, lol ~

I'm sick . . . Fuck . . .
GO HAMBURG GO VAN NISTELROOY !
GO MAN UNITED !

Ruud van Nistelrooy training for Hamburg

Wore a blazer to school today for PM1's PPT presentation,
I've no comments . . . Nevertheless, it's all over for PM1 presentations and all that's left are reports . . .
Anyway, thank you Stylist Icon and LCD for acknowledging my efforts, much appreciated (:

There's still no time to rest . . . Bunch of other modules rushing towards me zzzzz
I really want some space to breathe, sigh ~

Anyway, I'm going to buy clothes, most probably this friday, lol.

I miss everything about, still you're gone . . .

Should not have went to school today . . .
I woke up at 5.30am and fell asleep again unknowing ly and woke up 2 hours later @_@
Took my time, and reached school at 10.30, attended half an hour of WFB and skipped the rest of the lesson to do PM1 PPT, lol.
Headed to have lunch at Bedok's Pizza Hut first, haha!
Then to Mel's house to get her PPT updated and then walked to Chong Hwee's house which was just around the corner corner ~
What a nice, big house, how I wish . . . I only can wish . . . A toilet with a bath tub in your room, hahahah . . . .
Had a FREE dinner with Belle at Eunos interchange's hawker centre then headed home (:

I'm 100% done with the PPT,
just need a few rounds of rehearsal tomorrow and we're all fine . . .
Hopefully ~

The Gunners shot down!

Arsenal 1
Vermaelen 80
Man United 3
Almunia 32(Own Goal)
Rooney 37
Park 52

Arsenal v Manchester United
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You have to give all credits for Almunia's own goal to Nani. He has had his best game so far for United. One of the best performances by United, absolutely fantastic, high quality football. Rooney was another man on a hot form who scored his 100 goal in Premier League football, 20th of the season!
And United got all 3 points from this big big game and are still tailing closely behind Chelsea.
Are United going to be consistent? Based on the last two games I can say that they are magical. And hopefully Chelsea will drop points against Hull this wednesday and United to continue rampage and beat Chelsea when the fixture comes and go top!
Glory glory Man United!

Haha, played badminton today like an asshole . . .
Anyway, PM1 PPT is more or less almost done, and let's get over with it on wednesday . . .
ETP is still a headache, followed by SVE roleplay script . . .
After all these, the final papers are next . . .
And in mid March, it's all fucking over for Year 1!
Time flies, and for once I'm glad it does cause I can't for all the stress to go away~

There's only one thing that revolves around your life right now, every single day, from day to night, it's just the one thing . . . And it seems like I'm fading out of the picture of your life . . . It's all about balancing your life, your priorities, and it seems like as if you're left with nothing but that one thing . . . Still I'm there hanging there, yearning for you to remember my presence . . . For all I can see now is a disappearing solid bond we used to have . . .