Torned apart at the seems and my dreams turn to tears

If only I could turn back back time . . .
All those twisted lies wouldn't exist, wouldn't be told.
All those awful reality, cheap, scarred memories wouldn't be lingering in one corner of my mind.
These unsightly marks that define me wouldn't exist.
If only I could turn back time, I wouldn't be currently going through all these unnecessary rubbish.
"Why must the parts and parcels of my life be so rotten and fucked up ?"
Nobody can be responsible for that question, nobody can answer it for me.
I, myself, can only blame me, when all these things I hate revolve around me.
I'm not deceiving anyone, but myself. All these misfortunes, I brought them upon myself.

The wounds are so sore, and I'm torned apart.
I'm losing my temper even over the minors, I'm losing myself . . .
Even my fake smile is broken.

I'm not pleading for any sympathy here,
Maybe I just want to be left alone . . . For the time being.

Take the latter way, we're better off this way

CC and Gary are right now in my room, they're going home to continue with their beauty sleep while I'm gonna slog at work after a meagre three hours of sleep . . .

Manchester United 1
Giggs 62
West Ham 0

Giggs's individual brilliance won the game, still nothing conceded (:

Watched IP Man online, all the way till 5plus am before falling asleep.
Fantastic movie, really . . .

Gah, woke up too early and it's fucking boring right now . . . . .
These dumb mood swings are affecting the people around me, I feel bad when people have to put up with my black face and almost total silence . . . .

"And even when all hope is gone,
Move along, move along . . . . "

Whispers in the dark

Oh great, I received a pleasant email from Shokudo.
A customer commented on my service, it's what I do all the time, and I don't know why is it so special to him, haha! All I did practically was just introducing them the cheese cakes for desserts and refill their water without them prompting, lol.
Nevertheless, I'm still elated, it's the first time and it's a rare thing (:

On the other hand . . . . . .
I spent the 3 hours of shift break yesterday alone, isolating myself from the rest . . .
I just needed the time alone to unwind my mind. I'm getting sick of feeling like this, fucking emo bastard who sits at one corner, crying the fuck out.
Maybe your mission would be accomplished if I say I'm going to let go and move on with life.
Maybe this is retribution . . . . .

Mr Best friend was here yesterday, never fail to be there when I needed someone.
Thank you (:
And to many, especially the people at work. Cause my gastric was kinda killing me, I never ate during shift break . . . And there they are showing concern, I may not really show that I'm thankful but deep inside I'd really I appreciate it . . .
Because of my requested off day, the other full-timers have to work their ass out to cover me, without even complaining. But now, I guess I don't need the day off already . . .

Whatever decision I'm making, I don't wanna regret again . . .

Is there still hate in your blood ?

Oh yeah, I've got New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn in my hands right now :D
Bought em' during my shift break today . . . .

Split shift again tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow. Most likely, next monday too . . .
Just because of one requested off day, I'll have to abide all given conditions ZZZ . . . .
It's just for now . . . I'm used to it anyway . . .

Liverpool are out of the FA Cup, muhahahah!
I don't know what to say already, goodbye.

"I'm stretching but you're just out of reach.
You should know, I'm ready when you're ready for me .
And I'm waiting for the right time, for the day I catch your eye.
To let you know, that I'm yours to hold . . ."

Hello beautiful, how's it going ?

First of all, I've got my very own laptop already (:
Okay, I said I wanted a desktop but after pondering, yeah, I guess a laptop's better and way more convenient for sure.
It came in a great price and fantastic goodies, like the Creative speakers, wow ~
So CC came over and other then me, he was the only person that touched this Compaq baby, lol.
Watched The Grudge online before we slept, actually only half of the show, it wasn't really scary and it's boring ZZZ . . .

Headed over to Purmei to play soccer today, it's been very very long . . .
I got much lousier than before. The shooting remains the same, but my touches and dribbles just got so bad, I'm already quite weak at that actually, and now it's worst, which made me feel like a noob shit :\
Gah, I need to play more often, but I guess it's impossible . . . Sighs, whatever . . .

And then . . . My brother and I went to meet Penny's parents, also our grandparents. They look like total strangers cause I've already forgotten how they looked like. It was very very awkward, and there's this rather strange feeling. I thought they would talk alot, especially Granny, but she just asked like . . . How am I, studies, work. Nothing about my family and stuffs like that, and I could see from her eyes, it's like she's hiding something. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much, lol.
Had a meal, and then headed home already . . .
Reached home and got hit by a pile questions, as expected . . . And worst still, my mom cried.
This silly woman is afraid that they will snatch us away from her ?
She doesn't mind anything, but still this thing came like so suddenly, and I guess it wasn't a minor blow for her to take, and I understand.
It's still silly for her to think that I will leave this home ? To hell with that.
Yes, I miss my biological mom, and all I'm doing is just paying her, her parents a visit, just a visit.
I would never wanna stay with them. They may be fucking hell rich, but too bad, it's this very place that brought me to where I am today, from a boy not even a meter tall, to almost a man standing the tallest at home right now. Lol . . . I'm sensible enough to know what to do.
I won't be such a mother fucker, don't worry, heh.

And oh yeah, I guess I'll be extending my full-time post all the way till the end of March, if they fulfill my wish. All I request was just for off on one particular day, and they get to keep me for another month. Forget it if they don't, I won't even turn up for work on the requested date, and I would only work till the end of this month, lol.

"Hello Beautiful,
its been a long time since my phone's rung,
and you've been on that line.
I've been missing you, its true.

But tonight, I'm gonna fly
Yeah tonight, I'm gonna fly.
Cause I could comb across the world,
and see everything, and never be satisfied,
if I couldn't see those eyes . . ."

Another heart calls

From dinner time till closing yesterday was just boring, absolutely boring. . .
I don't know why, but the restaurant was almost empty, and there's nothing to do, and I have to watch the time pass so slowly, lol . . .
Met CC after work, and stayed over at my place as usual.



Liverpool 2
Torres 89, 90(+4)
Chelsea 0

What a late show by the Reds in the showdown between 2 of the big four.
Fernando Torres's goal drought has come to an end, winning the game for Liverpool in style, as epic as usual, lol.
Overall, the game was really aggressive. And kinda bias . . . Those who were supposed to be send off were not and the innocent one, Lampard, was sent off, I don't see a reason why either, lol.
And the lines man must have shit in his eyes, he was like a metre away, watching Bosingwa stamp Benayoun's back, and not even a yellow card was shown, haha!
Chelsea may be out of the title race. No, both Liverpool and Chelsea, also, Aston Villa and Arsenal, none of them will stand a chance, they aren't strong enough to take the throne away from United (:

Off to work,
NO MORE KOON ! D:
bye ~

The light that shines within you

What's with all the unhealthy management ?
Koon, who gave me an ang bao today, and who treated me so well for the past two weeks, is leaving already. Plus, my supervisor too. All transferring to other places :\
On the other hand, my previous service manager, Andi, is coming back (:
Out of all, why isn't Thomas going anywhere else? LOL !

Koon: You got shaver anot ?
Me: Yeah, at home luh, why ?
Koon: You see table 17 . . .
Me: *Looked at table 17 and saw a girl with very obvious moustache* HAHAHA!

Manchester United 1 : 0 Everton
Yet another win, another clean sheet, United stays firmly on top of the table (:

"When you're determined and up for one thing,
anything else comes along the way, resist .
You know, you're set, don't ever switch pathways, short cuts would only leave you with none at the end of it all.
That is what you want, that is who I need and nobody else.
Always keep that in mind, always do . . . . ."