Liar liar, hanging by a telephone wire

Off day today, stayed all day at home . . .
I guess it was better off this way,
my legs needs some rest, lol.

And today, I get to see a better picture of everything . . .
I'll give all it takes to mend my mistakes, and it's time that will heal everything.
My heart and mind, they need a rest,
They really need a long break from now onwards . . .

Working day tomorrow, I'm turning in now . . .
Bye ~

Where ever you go I'm crawling, even when we're falling apart

Wow, it's the first time I touched the cash register,
and also made a strawberry smoothie and mocha float, lol . . .
It's rather interesting working at the bar, but it's shit closing it ZZZ . . .
Nevertheless, I'll have to be in the bar for a period of time someday, like Ong, haha!

It takes a whole lot of my guts to tell the truth,
at least I'm doing something I think is right to do, it'll be unfair if I don't . . .
But . . . What's next ?

Where ever you go I'm crawling, even when you're breaking me heart

If there's anyone should I hate now, it should be myself . . .
I, who can't make things better, instead made it worst.
I, who can only think about the past and not really much on what to do next.
I, who will always be on the losing end, always a loser.
I'm being pushed aside, and probably hated . . .
I want to be someone better, I would give the world,
but why am I getting all these shit right now ?
Is this all meant to be ?
This is not what I want, I mean why must it be this way ?

What can I do ?

Say it's true, I'll never ask for anyone but you

Hat-trick my foot, I scored zero, and we actually lost 3-2 . . .
Shall not talked about it anymore ZZZZZ . . . . .

There was a new full timer today who work as the runner with me today and she knows nothing, and I had to go through hell on a friday night.
Needed to teach her things, and do other things especially the food pick ups which did not stop coming, waffles, blablablabla . . .
And I was so tired after the soccer match, and I only slept for 4 hours last night :\
I went to bed at 2am but ended up sleeping around 4am, wtf kay . . . .
I'm just glad I've got through today, poof ~

CC's at my place again, lol.
Watching Arsenal v Aston Villa right now . . .
And by the way, United won Stoke 1-0 before that (:

Hmmmmm, and I met somebody whom I've haven't met for a very long time today, kinda sudden decision though, lol.
I guess we've left the past behind already,
and I'm glad that everything's okay now (:

But in anyway, life is still as black as the gutter . . . . . . .

Say it's true, or everything that matters breaks in two

I just got back from work, and having a hang over during work sucks to the core !
I felt nauseous, lethargic, and it's like I may puke anytime . . .
I was fucking hungry but I threw away the food after a few mouth of it, lol. . .
Luckily it lasted for around 2 hours only, felt better after that,
but I still couldn't stand the smell of the disinfective liquid we used to clean the tables, the smell of the alcohol , UUUHHHH . . . . Ahahaha !

I guess work tomorrow would be very tiring, cause I have to wake up so damn early tomorrow,
to play a match with the B Boys 2009 (:
It's been more than a month since I've played soccer, can't wait to score goals, hat-trick, maybe double hat-tricks, lol.
Good luck ~

Gonna bathe now, me feet stinks like garbage . . .
ps: 4 months knowing you, it's getting unknowing . . . ):

Merry Christmas, here's to many more

When the clock struck 12, people were celebrating the festive season,
while I was topping up the condiments at Shokudo, LOL. . .
Whatever . . .

I met CC and Gary after work, like around 1.30am, and thank goodness we were there.
We actually kinda saved a life on Christmas day, ahahaha!
Cause this girl/woman collapse while we were walking pass her, so we called for an ambulance, I tell you the scene was epic, to me =X . . . Felt kinda proud, lol !



And then we had a little Christmas "party" . . .
Got drunk after a bottle of Black Label, haha!
I think I'm having a hang over right now,
and I still have work later :\ . . .

Anyway, I would like to wish all of you a
MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D
May this season bring you joy, peace and love,
May all your wishes come true,
Celebrate the day (:
I won't be doing or getting any of the above though . . . . . . .
ps: Merry christmas to you . . . . . . . . . . . Sighs . . . . .

I'll give up all I have just to breathe the same air as you

Headed to Queensway to get my contacts,
then to GWC just to follow CC look for some monkey present, lol.
And then, over to my place to bore ourselves out ZZZZZ . . .

The atmosphere was even more mundane the moment they left . . .
Like . . . So cold . . . filled with all my miseries . . .
It's not like I have not even tried pulling myself up before, I've tried many times already but sometimes I'll just breakdown and collapse, tormented by the thoughts that tears me apart and toss me into a world overwhelmed with remorse . . .
You people may think I'm weak, emo piece of crap.
Seriously, I can't help it, when your broken heart breaks your mind and breaks you down, it's really uncontrollable . . .
Everyday, I'll yearn for a better tomorrow, but will that better day ever come?
I live the tomorrows that that didn't get any better, and it really worns me out, sometimes I just get so sick and tired. . . .
Letting go will be the last thing that I will ever do, and solemnly other that what the fuck am I suppose to do ?

I can act all strong as much as I want here,
but what's the point ?
ps: It's not that we're can't be just friends, I'm okay with that, but you seem to be drifting so far and treating me almost like a stranger. Remember you once asked me, "Eh meh meh, if one day we don't contact anymore will ___ ____ __? :D". Does that even concern you now ?