I was so jaded

Getting into the school team has turned doubtful, lost 8-0 in training match, barely touch the ball, zero shots on target. The deterioration of my performance just tears me apart, I'm not blaming anyone on my fucked up performance, all I can blame is myself, I'm just fucking disappointed with myself. I just wanna get over it quickly . . .
Moreover, there's a match against last year's sec 5 batch. No one would expect me in the starting line up with my shit performance today.
I just feel my place in the school team is hanging by a thread, it just makes me worried, I really wanna be in the school team in this last year of my secondary life. I have to admit, I even cried over it just now.
Okay, I'm not gonna give up, these last few trainings before the south zone league starts, I'll just give my best, there's so much to learn in such a short period of time but nothing's impossible, everyone makes mistakes, I just got to get over this, take it as a lesson learned, learn from the mistakes, train on my weakness, improve on my strengths. Hopefully I'll be donning the Gess school team jersey.

Gah, I still do feel a little miserable right now :\
Tomorrow will always be a better day, hope so . . .

Some old keyboard in 5B's classroom...

If anyone could make me a better person, you could

Real Madrid 2
van Nistelrooy 66
Robinho 77
Real Zaragoza 0

Ruud van Nistelrooy is just one goal away from scoring his 10th goal of the season in the league (:
Marvellous marvellous composure and vision, executing a excellent header. Robinho's goal was just wicked, lashing a powerful low driven shot into the right bottom corner, putting Real 2 goals up.
Great victory !

Oh great, I'm one of the unlucky ones who're selected to take the pledge next week, fuck . . .
ZZZZ

ps: Alright, alright, slow down . . . (:

Going through this life, looking for angels

CLASS OUTING TODAY, not a really an ordinary class outing though. 1B'04, 2B'05, 3B'06, 4B'07, mates from these classes were here, 20+ people in total, I must say it's the largest attendance in all class outings I've ever been to, IT'S A GOOD THING! (:
Unfortunately, our plans for the day weren't really successful. Went to East Coast for cycling, alot alot ALOT of delays, waiting, and more more more, gah! We didn't even get to cycle out of East Coast, how pathetic ZZZ. Then comes the heavy rain, "Thanks" alot --"|
We returned our bikes after 3 hours of Nothing even though we booked em' for 4 hours. Nevertheless, there were quite alot of laughter and fun throughout the cycling (:
Many of them headed home after cycling, leaving just the 6 of us, Yenweng, Alex, Qizhi, Daniel, Shaocong and I.

Had dinner at Lau Pa Sat, walked randomly for an hour or so till we reached Esplanade, slacked for a while, and headed to BM central, met TYY there and thank you so much for dropping a bomb once again, I guess he felt guilty and then he meet us at night, hahahaa!
Tcss-ed, finally reached home around 11plus.

FA Cup 3rd Round
Aston Villa 0
Man United 2
Ronaldo 81
Rooney 89
What a late show by the Red Devils, once again it's Cristiano Ronaldo scoring the winner for United with a tap in from Giggs superb low cross (Are you happy???? XD). Then the substitude Wayne Rooney bangs one on target from a rebound after Ronaldo's shot was being blocked. Great performance, and
I. Just. Love it (:

Today's a really tiring day, alot of movement made, esp the walk from Raffles Quay to Esplanade, gah! Gotta log in to dream online right now, hahaha!
GOODNIGHT!

Adrenaline rush

3rd day of school,
we just gotta let everyone know that who's the biggest around here, HAHAHA!

Went to Vivo after school with Pamela, caught Alvin and the Chipmunks. Their fast forward x1.5 voice still resides in my head until now!!! HAHA!
Hanged out at the amphitheatre after that (:

ps: PAMELA WONG QI XIN! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXXX!!!! x3 x3 x3

Comatose

2nd day of school. I guess it wasn't bad at all even though it's a just a meagre number of company in my class. Lotsa really lame yet hilarious jokes. Alex asked me "What's Lim Bun's chinese name?", I replied " What?", "LIM MIAN BAO!". HAHAHA! Seriously laughed my ass off!
Hmmm, overall I had a nice time in school today, and the composition wasn't really bad. I couldn't think of what to write at first, but as I started writing I got the hang of it and ended up with 400+ words written, hahaha! And first time Lim Bun praised me for my graph! HAHAHA! FIRST TIME YOU KNOW, he praised me not sarcastically (:

Headed home shortly after school. Weekends are right at the day after tomorrow! HA!
ps: It's really okay, okay? Don't feel bad about it alright? I have no training tomorrow, I can go out with you, confirm! Loves! (:

It's all about you, it's all about you, baby

First day was school was kinda wierd, not as fun as I expected ZZZ. Many friends dropped POA and were put in 5B, while I'm in 5A. Only 10 guys and there's 25 girls, wow. Only Alex and Cheechoong's close to me in the class! The feeling's really awkward, cause 4b'07 used to have only 6 girls and there's 30 over guys, now guys in 5A are the minority, damn :\. Well, do or die, I'll still have to get use to it. Maybe it's a good, more concentration, with all the jokers' absence, hahaha!
I'm just jealous of those who can report to school at 8.30am every monday while we, the graduating batch've to report to school at the usual 7.20, gah! And... School's gonna extend our curriculum time up to 2.30 the latest everyday, fuckkkaaaaaa!!!
Also, there's a mock examination starting from tomorrow! Right on the second day of school?!?!? Luckily it's just english . . . But still, what the fuck luh.... ?
What can I say, they just want us to do well for our 'O's, so... It's for our own good! (Think positively)

Anyway, Manchester United won Birmingham on New Year's Day ! (:
Thank you so much for telling me the score before I did! Hahaha! x3<>
Man United 1
Tevez 25
Birmingham 0


There's so much more I wanna conclude about 2007 ! xD
Hmmmm.. Hmmmm....

(Ranked descending)

10 Best movies watched.
1. Dead Silence
2. Hitman
3. Harry Potter and the Order Of The Phoenix
4. Blades Of Glory
5. Stardust
6. The Game Plan
7. Enchanted
8. National Treasure
9. Alone
10. Secret

10 Best football moments
1. Real Zaragoza 2 - 2 Real Madrid (Ruud scoring 2 equalisers to keep Real Madrid on top of the table)
2. Manchester United 5 - 1 Fulham (Great start for United for the 2006/2007 campaign)
3. Manchester United 3 - 2 AC Milan (Superb comeback goal from Rooney on the 90th minute)
4. Manchester United 1 -1 Chelsea (United won 3 - 0 on penalties, superb saves from van der Sar)
5. Espanyol 3- 4 Real Madrid (From 3-1 down, they fought back and clinched the win. Esp when Higuian scored the winner on the 89th minute!)
6. Liverpool 0 -1 Manchester United (John O'shea come in as a substitude and scored the winning goal in the 92th minute!)
7. Real Madrid 4 - 1 Levante (Ruud scored a hat trick!!!)
8. Osasuna 1 - 4 Real Madrid (Ruud scored 4 goals!!!)
9. Everton 2 - 4 Manchester United (The best come back of the season!)
10. Real Madrid 3 - 1 Mallorca (1-0 down on the first half, Ruud injured and out, Reyes equalised after coming in for Beckham, Diarra heads in the winning goal shortly after that, and Reyes kills the game with a sensational curler in the 83rd minute! And winning is a must to win the La Liga Title!!!!!)

10 Best Songs
1. The Poison - Bullet For My Valentine
2. The Good Left Undone - Rise Against
3. Reinventing Your Exit - Underoath
4. Here (In Your Arms) - Hellogoodbye
5. Pull The Curtain - Sum 41
6. All The Same - Sick Puppies
7. Lost And Found - Senses Fail
8. My Heart - Paramore
9. Face Down - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
10. 23 - Jimmy Eat World
23's a really great song, one song which explains almost everything I've gone through last year, really meaningful, superb rhythm, beat, guitars, it's just gives me the feeling that tingles inside everytime I listen to it.

I felt for sure last night that once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me

I'm still driving away and I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live not stopping

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me
Only you

You'll sit alone forever if you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for
I'm here
I'm now
I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever if you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for
I'm here
I'm now
I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever if you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for
I'm here
I'm now
I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever if you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for
I'm here
I'm now
I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Well, I guess thats all?
Currently looking for the next soccer training!

ps: I wasn't late ! (:

So long '07, goodbye . . .

HAPPY NEW YEAR !
And say Hello to 2008 alright!!! (:
In a blink of an eye, there goes yet another year, more memories to be kept, yet another to remember, for life...
When the clock hits 12am on January 1st 2008, we were still racing on our bikes, riding just beside the runway, shouting "Happy New Year!" to every passerby, hahahaha!


Hmmm... How has 2007 been? Well, as usual, life has it's ups and downs? Had been really down, somewhere around the year, but now, I'm just really happy with life yeah. Surely, alot alot ALOT of happenings during the year, alot of things and stuffs that I did for the first time.
FIRST TIME, I smoked, okay, I have to admit, it gives the lungs a kind of pleasure, but as we all know, it KILLS, and thank God I've kick the damn habit, no one and nothing can make me smoke ever again, cross my heart!

FIRST TIME, I slit my wrist, yet another bad thing, I WAS emo, I was really miserable, I just felt like I'm really lost, I just don't no what to do, felt helpless, hopeless, my life was really dark and cold at those moments of the year, and yeah, I got a feeling how those people really felt when they slit their wrist, the heart aches so much then you inflict pain on yourself to relieve the pain inside, it may sound stupid, and yes it is very stupid, cross my heart again that I'll never do it ever again!

FIRST TIME, I got a criminal record, another bad thing, hahaha!
FIRST TIME, I went overnight cycling, it's really a very very nice and interesting experience for the first time, though it's tiring but the thrills and fun, simply memorable (:

FIRST TIME, I went overseas without my parents! Hahaha! This is recent yeah? Went to Malaysia with Jasper and family, going overseas with a friend is really much much much more fun then going with your own family, even though it's only one friend but as long you have a friend there, the fun just never stops yeah!

FIRST TIME, in the past 16 years this has been the longest hair I've ever grown. The frinch, the sides, the back, my hair has never felt better this before, hahaha!
FIRST TIME, I PASSED MATHS ! FOR ALL MY FUCKING SCHOOLING LIFE, IT'S THE VERY FIRST TIME I PASSED MATHS, MOREOVER IT'S THE N LEVEL PAPER THAT I'VE PASSED, SUPERB ACHIEVEMENT, I've made my parents really proud about it that I've finally passed my maths (: (:
FIRST TIME, watching movie with almost the whole class ! That's during the ACE camp, NICE!
FIRST TIME, climbing into GESS's rooftop!!! Nice experience, it's really cooling up there, woots!

FIRST TIME, going swimming with my neighbours which turned out to to UTTERLY OUTRAGEOUS! HAHAHA! Played in the fucking heavy rain, WAHOOOO! A day I cannot forget, hahaha!


FIRST TIME, having a study camp with 4B'07!!!! Oh my god, this camp would be fantastic if those problems weren't occured, whatever, what's over, OVER! I still enjoyed it MUCH! =D


Lastly, FIRST TIME, heh, I've ever felt this kind of feeling, It's like I'm living a dream in reality right now. I've never felt this lifted, this happy, sometimes I even think I'm flying! And I really do hope it'll last long long long long long ! x3


10 moments to remember!
1. Manchester United crowned Premier League champions 2006/2007.
2. Real Madrid, La Liga Champions 2006/2007
3. Ruud van Nistelrooy, top scorer in the league 2006/2007, bronze boot award, 6th place in the Golden Ball award!
4. Man United's 7-1 victory over Roma in the Champions League!
5. All the little/big moments of brilliance I've made playing soccer.
6. MY 'N' LEVEL RESULTS (:
7. All the laughter and crap and extraordinary fun I had in 4B'07! \m/
8. All those great moments listed above "10 moments to remember"
9. TIMES WITH MY LONG HAIR!!
10. Christmas day! (: (: (:

Here's a little something to almost everyone (:

To Jasper:
Brother, 5 years and counting. All the times with shared this year cannot be compared to the previous years. You have always been there for me no doubt, and I really really thank you alot, I owe you millions!!! Time after time, you had always been there when I'm down, there when I'm in trouble, there to listen what I have to say and more! You are undoubtly the best guy in this world I've ever met, our brotherhood's unlikely to end till death do us apart yeah? If we ever really had a big fight I don't know what would happened, we both know each other's darkest secrets, hawhawhaw! Thanks for the letter anyway! It's really sweet ! (:
Hope, your hair grows faster! Hope, our friendship could stay this way! AND LAST LONG WITH YOUR FRUITY YEAH =D

To Tricia BF!:
HELLO BESTFRIEND!!! =D. Awww, so sad you couldn't get the job, $6/hour, hahaha! xD. Hmmm, you've been a VELI GOOD FRIEND, a VELI NICE PERSON, NAISSSSSS! (: . Anyway, I really hope to see you and mw last long yeah ????? You can always talk to me if you need to rant yeah! (: . WOOO! SEE YA IN SCHOOL TOMORROW!

To Yenweng:
Maybe you'll read this, maybe no. I just wanna say thank you for being such a great friend! I feel bad for backstabbing you during the past, but I know you've forgiven me rightttt? Hahaha! Really had alot of fun times with you this year. This guys can really cracked me up, anytime, anywhere, humourous ass! xD. BEST WISHES POH YENWENG!! =D

To Yongyang:
Poor feller, always being the bullseye for everyone, hahaha! BOMBER MAN!!! You're tough huh? Can tolerate all of our nonsense and still treat us as GOOD FRIENDS! HAHAA! Nevertheless, you have always been a great great friend since sec 2 when we always make trouble and get ourselves into trouble, haha! He's really steady when it comes to serious matters, he said he won't let anyone hurt me even if I'm in the wrong, HERO SIOL! Anyway, thank you so much for being so nice (:
LAST LONGER LONGER WITH CHOW SHIMIN ! XD

To Alex:
Most likely, you'll see this, HELLO! xD. Hmmmm, what to say? I don't really have any idea, but he's just another VERY VERY VERY GOOD FRIEND who shared alot of good times during the past few years, and I thank you for that, it would just feel wierd if you're not there, like someone's missing.... I don't know how to explain... HAHA!
ALL THE BEST FOR 'O' Levels next year! =D

To Gary:
Surprised that your name is here? Hahaha! Well, thought we don't talk much, we don't even see each other very often, but we sure talk a hell lotsa stuffs online, stuffs that only both of us know, heh. He's a really close friend to me who knows how I feel and all, I'd rant on him when I down, and though he sometimes don't know what to tell me, he'd still make me feel better. THANK YOU ALOT (: . And both of us have one thing in heart, MANCHESTER UNITED \m/
BEST OF LUCK IN EVERYTHING MY FRIEND ! =D

To Mateen:
This year's school team captain ! Never fails to inspire the team with his superior talent in soccer. And also a great friend, always putting faith in me and believe that I can make it for the school team (: . Surely, I'll train hard, to prove to you, prove to every doubters that I am capable to perform in the school team ! RAWR !
ALL THE BEST TO US NEXT YEAR, HOPEFULLY , HOPEFULLY, WE'LL BE CHAMPIONS !It's gonna be tough, but it's not impossible !

To Yichun:
Gah, this guy would always pay for my stuffs whenever I'm broke, richass! DON'T PLAY PLAY NEXT YEAR ALREADY, STUDY EXTRA HARD !

To Jiaying:
LONG TIME NO SEE, NO TALK MAN! Anyway, she had been a really great friend in school, entertaining at times when she goes crazy, hahaha! BROTHER BROTHER UH! XD. She's a very nice person to talk to, talk about this that, blablabla, non stop, HAHA!
SEE YOU IN SCHOOL... TOMORROWWWW!!!! =D

To Carmel:
Harry Potter!!! (: . She has been a fantastic friend since sec 3 when we got into the same class, omg, she's smart, she's nice, and she's cute x43637456545657!!!! She'd always fall for tricks from us, hahahaha! xD. Someone next year relax already huh? No maths, no Poa, woahhh... Yet another person I can share my problems with, and she'll always try her best to make me feel better and give me advices, I did heed some of them yeah! You can always look for me if you need a listening ear alright?? I'll be there ! =D
Anyway, STAY CUTEEEE!!!!!! HAHAHA! (:

To 4B'07:
Thank you all so much, really, I will miss this class dearly. Some of us are gonna go out of school next year and you guys are really sure to be miss badly! :\. Thanks for all the chaos, laughter, fun and all the crazy times we had together, I will never forget you all for life man . . . Thank god so much, most of us are going to sec 5 next year and I hope we can a reunion outing next year ! =D

To my neighbours:
6 years and counting, never fails to provide laughter and fun to the beautiful game we all love, SOCCER ! (: . It's more than just playing soccer! They're a bunch of people who lights up my life in Redhill for the past few years, stayovers, watching soccer matches at each other's house, sharing our life stories, and more! I really thank you all being such nice people, and surely, you guys are my BEST CHILDHOOD MEMORIES! Remember we used to play kiddy catching in the playground, block catching, screaming and running around, INSANITY ! I LIKE ! WE LIKE !
I'll never forget you guys, even if I moved out or something, I'll still come back and pay a visit once in a while, cause I'll miss you all so much ! HAPPY 2008 GUYS ! =D

To my family:
Thank you for everything, I am really blessed to be in this family, I LOVE YOU ALL (:

To Ruud van Nistelrooy:
My passion, my love for you will never die, it's been 6 years watching you play, and I've always been there with you, even when you're injured and out, I'd always pray every single day that you'll come back. I'm really your die hard fan! ONWARD VAN NISTELROOY, WIN THE GOLDEN BOOT THIS YEAR, I KNOW YOU'RE CAPABLE OF DOING THAT! =D

To YOU:
HTLVLW YOU TOOOOOO!!!!!! You just make me the most happiest person on Earth! Just wanna tell you that, no matter where, no matter what, call my name, and I'll be there, SWOOOSH! *Eyes rolling* Hmmm, hmmm, hmmmm..... Seek my heart, and you already know what I want to tell you, TEEHEE! =D
YAY! SEE YOU TOMORROW IN SCHOOL! LET'S GET THROUGH OUR 'O' Level papers, together!!! ((:
XOXO x3

2OO8 Resolutions.
1. Get into the school team and perform well.
2. STUDY HARD, PLAY LESS!
3. DO WELL FOR 'O' Levels
4. Get a good course in the Poly
5. Looking forward to our one year annivesary this christmas ! (:

Once again,
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
2008, it's a new year, it's gonna be a good year! Surely, it's gonna pass away very fast! And it's my last year in school. Let's make 2008 a even more memorable year than 2007 !